so i tried to be sweet tonight.... it didnt fucking work.. i drove bye the deli, and her car was there. i hauled ass down corporate to albertsons, i headed back, her car was not there. i really wanted to tell her i care about her. i do. not like, "i wanna date you" but on a much higher level than that. maybe she'll see this, and just knowing ( Read more... )

grilled portabello over baby fresh spinach, with a raspbery vinagrette... all topped with a little parmesan reggiano.... damn im good at this.

ohh yeah... cody, you asked what kind of beer i wanted last night... when i show up tomm morning, i would prefer my brewsky to be either budweiser or corona... but i aint one to discriminate.. and beer doesnt discriminate... whatever it tastes like, it will still get me drunk for doc's class.%3

so i was telling mercier this afternoon that the 929 is doing good... (except for the doors, but im workin on that)... i went to dinner at dads tonight.... it went ok, and i was bout to leave... hop in, turn the key, and click... %3%3turn off the radio, air, and lights.... turn... click. he jumped it. damn battery. havent even had it for 2 years ( Read more... )

one of the worst feelings in the world is going from a son to an after-thought. time & time again.... my existence as a person has been questioned. i went from his only damn son, to a god damn yard boy. thats what it comes down to. pops & the stepmother are inside munchin on some baked brie & crackers, while im out mowing the grass, lightnings ( Read more... )

i've listened to this song for about 20 times now... im not exactly sure why ( Read more... )

I AM HAVING MELISSA WITHDRAWALS! haha. Actually, it's not that bad. I saw her Friday night. I will live.

You know what? Thinking always makes things worse. And the more you try to not think about thigns, the more you do. You know what else? I do not know why people say "clear your mind" because it isn't possible. Your mind is never clear...you are always thinking something. If you are thinking of nothing...you are still thinking. Craziness. I ( Read more... )

So I must say, I have the best livejournal in the world. I dont even have to update it. My livejournal fairy Melissa does it for me, and I dont even have to tell her how Im feeling, SHE KNOWS. Its amazing. SHE REALLY IS A GREAT GIRL. -Smiff.%3

So I get online hoping Melissa will be here...she isn't. But I think she will be eventually. 12:30 P.M. <---- Melissa gets online! I am dead tired now because I have been up since 4:30 but I want to at least tell Melissa to have sweet dreams and to have a good night. I am not in love with Melissa...or even obsessed with her, but Danielle is out ( Read more... )