December fourth, Day 4 of the Ten Day Meme
I'm going to include links to previous answers :)
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.
1. I worry about my job, whether it's a good fit or will provide me the opportunities I need right now.
2. I think about Myles a lot, wondering what he is up to, when will I get to see him next, what should we do when we see each other. But I also worry if he's happy with the way things are, is he hopeful about starting a life together, will we manage to make it work.
3. I think about my family and my pets, hoping they are proud of me, thinking about my sister and her wedding this August
4. I think about completing artwork that has been on the back burner, those couple of commissions left and that huge praying mantis that has sat unfinished for over a year now
5. I think about my friends and wanting to hang out with them more, wondering if I missed out on some big opportunities to get close because I was a mess growing up, but now I'm sorta a mess realizing I have a whole lot left I need to sort out with my worries about being judged and misunderstood
6. It's sorta temporary but I think a lot about Spore lately and creating critters and maybe getting the expansion pack. It's a simple game, I enjoy it.
7. I wonder if I should go back to therapy or change my prescriptions to help with this worry and insecurity... Or if I should just talk about it more to people who can actually help me in this transition to adulthood. I think I just hate being in transition whenever it occurs. I want things to be done and over with, I want to arrive to my destination, I get anxious when I drive places because I just want to get to where I'm going and sit and be still. Strange how I spent most my life running in hyper-drive while manic and all I want to do is be still now. The not manic thing is so new compared to the previous of my life. I don't think I am where I want to be yet....