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what ive really been wanting to say-
ASSHOLE.
there. now i can finally say that without feeling bad that im hurting someone. screw that. from now on my feelings are under LOCK.
thanks for finally convincing me to open myself up to you. and thanks again for NOT supplying the mutual feelings.......twice.
but hey...at least you faked it for a while....that was almost nice...
and thats as mad as im going to get at you, because you DID make me happy. so thanks for that.
and im sorry for not being whatever it is you wanted me to be. look at me, being all cliche just for you....
wow i seriously didnt even think i was that mad. im not mad. IM NOT MAD. im just so so SORRY.
*insert song lyrics from #s 2,3,and 4 here*
ok yea these are my songs. if you want to see how exact they are for my situation- read them!
*OK WAIT* DONT read this and feel sorry for me cuz seriously thats not why im doing this. only so yall can...i guess know how i feel? or something.... and like some of these lyrics are more extreme then my current situation.
im not nearly as depressed as some of these words might make me out to be. whatever just read it.
#2:
your love was so good to me, id think about it in my sleep, but something came around and knocked me off my feet, the love was gone magically, i talked to you a long time that one night, we tried to talk behind all those tears we cried, but the day came and you realized you were loving me through someone elses eyes, i try to figure out why your leaving but all i do is cry, you said it was for a good reason, but then again you always thought you were right, but now im movin on no time to waste im goin back to the better days i know itll take some time but my hearts ready to go. for everything that you did, we fell apart a little bit by bit, i heard the lies from your trembling lips, you thought i wouldnt notice but i did and for different reasons i would try to say im sorry but youd walk right on by you didnt seem to want to know me, id never given up on you but lately, lately youve given up on me.....blahblahblah
#3
now only time can tell, time can only help to assuage the destruction ive endured. patiently waiting, forgiveness an option, and lucky for you its a chance that im willing to take, i may be the one who used to forget but now that your gone im filled with regret and the rain pourin down like the tears on my cheek screams the way that we used to be. slowly coming to your senses, anxiously awaiting endlessly for a love you may never come to find youve started to sense your feelings again but im not the one youre feeling for, all of the things you wished i could be are buried alive deep down inside me your hollow heart screams as your one defense but the look of your smile has got me senseless...now only time can tell.
#4: this one works sooo good
your choice it left me in the cold, i didnt know what to do, no matter what you did to me, i was still there missing you, i wanted to feel how i felt before over and over again but you played that game all yu guys seem to play every now and then, everybody hurts sometimes but i never thought my reason would be you, but now its your turn to feel that way, when your hearts torn apart, theres not much that you can do. all the pain inside of me has shattered my old smile, but im not the first to fall like that and i know that ill be alright , and through the heartache and through the tears i gave and i cried, im almost filled with no regrets except that you wasted so much of time
everybody hurts sometimes....but now its your turn to feel that way, when your hearts torn apart theres not much that you can do
ok now go "back" so you can read the rest in prettier, not so huge font.
good thing my life is so redundant. and my lyrics prove it.
ANYWAY
you know what really makes me mad? when people [girls] rag on other people [girls] about the clothes they wear...especially those huge snow boots. ok so you DONT LIKE THEM. we get the point. dont wear them and stop whining. but let other people do what they want. who friggin cares if this isnt alaska. maybe their feet get cold??
WHAT I WANT FOR CHRiSTMAS
(and other holidays where we speak of dead men)
By Nicole Blackman
i want to know how it will end.
i want to be sure of what it will be cost.
i want to strangle the stars for all they promised me.
i want you to call me on your drug phone.
i want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later.
i want to be there when you learn the cost of desire.
i want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win.
i want the name of the ruiner.
i want matches incase i have to suddenly burn.
i want you to know being kind is overrated.
i want to measure how much torture we can stand.
i want to know where your altruism went.
i want to watch you lose control.
i want to watch you lose.
i want to know exactly what its going to take.
i want to see you insert yourself into glory.
i want your touches to scar me so ill know where you've been.
i want to watch you when i go down in flames.
i want to crush the thing you love just so you know i can.
i want a list of atrocities done in your name.
i want to work both sides of the fence.
i want to have two cats so when one dies one will eat the other and nothing will be wasted.
i want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back.
i want you to turn tender when you have the time.
i want to remember when my nightmares were clearer.
i want to be there when your hot black rage rips open.
i want to find a way for you to survive all of this.
i want to taste my own kind.
i want America to be socialized around creation instead of fear.
i want to meet your host virus.
i want to charm your sleep captain.
i want everyone to see the tiara break.
i want to wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if its different on this side.
i want you to play it to me over the phone.
i want you to make a scorching debut.
i want you to come on strong.
i want the television left on so i can sleep.
i want to crunch the numbers.
i want you to write your life story and leave me out of it.
i want to write my secret across your sky.
i want to keep you in the dark.
i want to keep you out in the cold.
i want to voice my concerns.
i want the same exact thing but different.
i want some soft drugs, soft soft drugs.
i want to throw you.
i want to know if ill ever be safe in the dark.
i want to decide who next year's dead rock stars will be.
i want you to know i know.
i want to speak hot metal fluently.
i want to know why you're starting to look like the last one.
i want just enough rope to hang you.
i want to hurt myself before you do, because i can do it better.
i want to coax the keys from your hand.
i want to throttle the bottle blonde because i know what she did.
i want to know if you read me.
i want to swing with my eyes shut and see what i hit.
i want to silver your hands.
i want to know just how much you hate me so i can predict what you'll do.
i want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted.
i want a controlling interest.
i want to be somewhere beautiful when i die.
i want to be your secret hater.
i want to stop destroying you but i cant.
i want and i want and i want and i will always be hungry
..wow..
i hope you dream of me at night.
sweet. so maybe im really good at making pictures unproportional..sorry that picture is kinda stretched funny..
ASSHOLE.
there. now i can finally say that without feeling bad that im hurting someone. screw that. from now on my feelings are under LOCK.
thanks for finally convincing me to open myself up to you. and thanks again for NOT supplying the mutual feelings.......twice.
but hey...at least you faked it for a while....that was almost nice...
and thats as mad as im going to get at you, because you DID make me happy. so thanks for that.
and im sorry for not being whatever it is you wanted me to be. look at me, being all cliche just for you....
wow i seriously didnt even think i was that mad. im not mad. IM NOT MAD. im just so so SORRY.
*insert song lyrics from #s 2,3,and 4 here*
ok yea these are my songs. if you want to see how exact they are for my situation- read them!
*OK WAIT* DONT read this and feel sorry for me cuz seriously thats not why im doing this. only so yall can...i guess know how i feel? or something.... and like some of these lyrics are more extreme then my current situation.
im not nearly as depressed as some of these words might make me out to be. whatever just read it.
#2:
your love was so good to me, id think about it in my sleep, but something came around and knocked me off my feet, the love was gone magically, i talked to you a long time that one night, we tried to talk behind all those tears we cried, but the day came and you realized you were loving me through someone elses eyes, i try to figure out why your leaving but all i do is cry, you said it was for a good reason, but then again you always thought you were right, but now im movin on no time to waste im goin back to the better days i know itll take some time but my hearts ready to go. for everything that you did, we fell apart a little bit by bit, i heard the lies from your trembling lips, you thought i wouldnt notice but i did and for different reasons i would try to say im sorry but youd walk right on by you didnt seem to want to know me, id never given up on you but lately, lately youve given up on me.....blahblahblah
#3
now only time can tell, time can only help to assuage the destruction ive endured. patiently waiting, forgiveness an option, and lucky for you its a chance that im willing to take, i may be the one who used to forget but now that your gone im filled with regret and the rain pourin down like the tears on my cheek screams the way that we used to be. slowly coming to your senses, anxiously awaiting endlessly for a love you may never come to find youve started to sense your feelings again but im not the one youre feeling for, all of the things you wished i could be are buried alive deep down inside me your hollow heart screams as your one defense but the look of your smile has got me senseless...now only time can tell.
#4: this one works sooo good
your choice it left me in the cold, i didnt know what to do, no matter what you did to me, i was still there missing you, i wanted to feel how i felt before over and over again but you played that game all yu guys seem to play every now and then, everybody hurts sometimes but i never thought my reason would be you, but now its your turn to feel that way, when your hearts torn apart, theres not much that you can do. all the pain inside of me has shattered my old smile, but im not the first to fall like that and i know that ill be alright , and through the heartache and through the tears i gave and i cried, im almost filled with no regrets except that you wasted so much of time
everybody hurts sometimes....but now its your turn to feel that way, when your hearts torn apart theres not much that you can do
ok now go "back" so you can read the rest in prettier, not so huge font.
good thing my life is so redundant. and my lyrics prove it.
ANYWAY
you know what really makes me mad? when people [girls] rag on other people [girls] about the clothes they wear...especially those huge snow boots. ok so you DONT LIKE THEM. we get the point. dont wear them and stop whining. but let other people do what they want. who friggin cares if this isnt alaska. maybe their feet get cold??
WHAT I WANT FOR CHRiSTMAS
(and other holidays where we speak of dead men)
By Nicole Blackman
i want to know how it will end.
i want to be sure of what it will be cost.
i want to strangle the stars for all they promised me.
i want you to call me on your drug phone.
i want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later.
i want to be there when you learn the cost of desire.
i want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win.
i want the name of the ruiner.
i want matches incase i have to suddenly burn.
i want you to know being kind is overrated.
i want to measure how much torture we can stand.
i want to know where your altruism went.
i want to watch you lose control.
i want to watch you lose.
i want to know exactly what its going to take.
i want to see you insert yourself into glory.
i want your touches to scar me so ill know where you've been.
i want to watch you when i go down in flames.
i want to crush the thing you love just so you know i can.
i want a list of atrocities done in your name.
i want to work both sides of the fence.
i want to have two cats so when one dies one will eat the other and nothing will be wasted.
i want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back.
i want you to turn tender when you have the time.
i want to remember when my nightmares were clearer.
i want to be there when your hot black rage rips open.
i want to find a way for you to survive all of this.
i want to taste my own kind.
i want America to be socialized around creation instead of fear.
i want to meet your host virus.
i want to charm your sleep captain.
i want everyone to see the tiara break.
i want to wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if its different on this side.
i want you to play it to me over the phone.
i want you to make a scorching debut.
i want you to come on strong.
i want the television left on so i can sleep.
i want to crunch the numbers.
i want you to write your life story and leave me out of it.
i want to write my secret across your sky.
i want to keep you in the dark.
i want to keep you out in the cold.
i want to voice my concerns.
i want the same exact thing but different.
i want some soft drugs, soft soft drugs.
i want to throw you.
i want to know if ill ever be safe in the dark.
i want to decide who next year's dead rock stars will be.
i want you to know i know.
i want to speak hot metal fluently.
i want to know why you're starting to look like the last one.
i want just enough rope to hang you.
i want to hurt myself before you do, because i can do it better.
i want to coax the keys from your hand.
i want to throttle the bottle blonde because i know what she did.
i want to know if you read me.
i want to swing with my eyes shut and see what i hit.
i want to silver your hands.
i want to know just how much you hate me so i can predict what you'll do.
i want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted.
i want a controlling interest.
i want to be somewhere beautiful when i die.
i want to be your secret hater.
i want to stop destroying you but i cant.
i want and i want and i want and i will always be hungry
..wow..
i hope you dream of me at night.
sweet. so maybe im really good at making pictures unproportional..sorry that picture is kinda stretched funny..