I got home last night feeling like crap. I didn't want to be there. I knew i wouldn't be able to deal with Daniel and his ever fluctuating moods, and Karl had been called into work and wasn't going to be coming home, so i decided to go out ( Read more... )

Just when things are looking up, my world comes crumbling down around me. I feel like i have been yoyo-ing from good to bad, every day. Yesterday, just so good, adn today, just so down. I hate this so very very much. It's a long story, but it goes something a little like this ( Read more... )

I had a good night last night. I feel a little bit like the world is cutting me a bit of a break after all the crap it has put me through in the last few months. (Touch wood ( Read more... )

It seems like i am unable to kep the way that i am feeling consistant. I'm feelign pretty chipper today, for a numebr of reasons and i will try and explain them all here as best i can ( Read more... )

Ok, so that good feelig didn't last that long really. Kiz and i were talking abotu our respective break-ups, and the feelings all came pouring back ( Read more... )

By now all of you should know about my obsession with New Zealand. For those of you who don't know......Hope it's been nice living under that rock for the last few years ( Read more... )

Ok, so it is all confirmed. Karl is out on the 19th and Kirill is in the same day....(note to self, no more friends whos names start with K). Last night was difficult. A lot of tears and a frantic phone call to dave later, and i am feelign a lot better about the whole him leaving thing. There is nothing i can do, and i have accepted that this is ( Read more... )

Things went well, and so today is my frist day back at work. I'm a little sore, and my chair is SO uncomfortable, so I'm bringing in a pillow of something tomorrow ( Read more... )

All things being well, on monday morning i will be going in for surgery. Those of you who pray, please do. Those of you who don't, cross your fingers for me. I'm not going to bull shit anyone, I'm bloody terrified. I hate the place that i am in at the moment in life, but i have to go through it to get to the other side, and i have accepted that ( Read more... )

Everything Burns ( Read more... )