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20 things people may not know about
1. i'm insecure as all hell, about everything: my body, my schoolwork, my family, my life.
2. i've got the shortest attention span alive in relationships.
3. i'm scared that i won't get into uf. i know i can only blame myself.
4. i've never smoked pot, or drank. i smoke cloves socially, and hate to admit it.
5. i'm a sucker for guys in girl's jeans, especially when i have a significant other.
6. i'm scared that i'll never feel the way i did about matt about someone else. i'm scared matt and i will never have a relationship (of any kind) again.
7. that's the first time i've got sentimental about matt in about... a year.
8. i absolutely love the way my ears ring for three days after a show at the social.
9. i pretend to progress in my musical taste but at heart, no matter how indie my music becomes, i will never let go of the starting line and barenaked ladies.
10. i don't know if i want to get along with my dad. i try very hard and really wish i did sometimes, but other times, i feel as if my life would be easier without him in it. i hate feeling that way.
11. i mean it when i say i miss you to old friends, but have the hardest time making time for them. i hate that about myself, half of it is because i'm busy and the other half is i'm scared i think.
12. i hate change.
13. i'm scared to have sex; because of the attachment i would have to that person, as well as the fact that its complicated. and once i did, i know i would fall into it all the time.
14. i am and will always be scared to be 'that girl' or 'the ex-girlfriend' to anyone, ever.
15. i'm not happy with the way i am sometimes, especially my priorities. and how i can get caught up in some things.
16. i would go gay for scarlett johansson.
17. i don't know what to do. i found someone who makes me want to settle down and put things on hold. i've never found that before, and i don't know if it's HIM or just the idea and thought of him. i'm so scared of that.
18. my cell phone is attached to my ear, everyone knows that. but no one realizes how much i hate it sometimes, i wish i could throw it out the window, but my family revolves around cell phones as much as it does sex.
19. i hate when i say something that i care about and believe and that matters to me, and then someone i love makes a joke out of it. it kills me inside and makes me feel like shit, and i hate how someone else can make me feel that way.
20. my life revolves too much around a relationship or lack thereof, and i hate it. it makes me insecure that my happiness relies on a boy so often. i lie sometimes about how i feel or shrug off things to make it appear like less than what i want or wish it was, i hate all of this, and most of it, i've been trying to change, sometimes with and sometimes without success. its one of my biggest insecurities.
I was tagged by Sara, thats the only thing that matters to me. :)
And I dont have much more to say. Saw Lovedrug/Juliana Theory and then Halifax/Hidden in Plain View... seeing a million shows in November. Thats about it.
I feel insane. This is so unlike me.
1. i'm insecure as all hell, about everything: my body, my schoolwork, my family, my life.
2. i've got the shortest attention span alive in relationships.
3. i'm scared that i won't get into uf. i know i can only blame myself.
4. i've never smoked pot, or drank. i smoke cloves socially, and hate to admit it.
5. i'm a sucker for guys in girl's jeans, especially when i have a significant other.
6. i'm scared that i'll never feel the way i did about matt about someone else. i'm scared matt and i will never have a relationship (of any kind) again.
7. that's the first time i've got sentimental about matt in about... a year.
8. i absolutely love the way my ears ring for three days after a show at the social.
9. i pretend to progress in my musical taste but at heart, no matter how indie my music becomes, i will never let go of the starting line and barenaked ladies.
10. i don't know if i want to get along with my dad. i try very hard and really wish i did sometimes, but other times, i feel as if my life would be easier without him in it. i hate feeling that way.
11. i mean it when i say i miss you to old friends, but have the hardest time making time for them. i hate that about myself, half of it is because i'm busy and the other half is i'm scared i think.
12. i hate change.
13. i'm scared to have sex; because of the attachment i would have to that person, as well as the fact that its complicated. and once i did, i know i would fall into it all the time.
14. i am and will always be scared to be 'that girl' or 'the ex-girlfriend' to anyone, ever.
15. i'm not happy with the way i am sometimes, especially my priorities. and how i can get caught up in some things.
16. i would go gay for scarlett johansson.
17. i don't know what to do. i found someone who makes me want to settle down and put things on hold. i've never found that before, and i don't know if it's HIM or just the idea and thought of him. i'm so scared of that.
18. my cell phone is attached to my ear, everyone knows that. but no one realizes how much i hate it sometimes, i wish i could throw it out the window, but my family revolves around cell phones as much as it does sex.
19. i hate when i say something that i care about and believe and that matters to me, and then someone i love makes a joke out of it. it kills me inside and makes me feel like shit, and i hate how someone else can make me feel that way.
20. my life revolves too much around a relationship or lack thereof, and i hate it. it makes me insecure that my happiness relies on a boy so often. i lie sometimes about how i feel or shrug off things to make it appear like less than what i want or wish it was, i hate all of this, and most of it, i've been trying to change, sometimes with and sometimes without success. its one of my biggest insecurities.
I was tagged by Sara, thats the only thing that matters to me. :)
And I dont have much more to say. Saw Lovedrug/Juliana Theory and then Halifax/Hidden in Plain View... seeing a million shows in November. Thats about it.
I feel insane. This is so unlike me.