Comments | staggeredtherum: Off I Go

staggeredtherum

Off I Go

Mar 09, 2006 08:25

Well here I sit at the Philadelphia Airport.... off to Germany I go. :) I think this will be a good experience for me. My military record is no exception to my constant strive for success... I graduated at the top of my basic training class... (Soldier Leader of the Cycle) ... and now, as of Tuesday of this week, I have graduated at the top of my ( Read more... )

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brokenbabydoll May 23 2006, 15:51:28 UTC

Jon.

I'm so sorry for the way things ended with us. I'm sorry that I wasn't strong enough to forgive you and get past all of the shit. I doubt you will reply after the way I treated you, but I need you to know that I'm sorry. I loved you so much. I don't want us to go the rest of our lives never speaking again.

I pray that you're safe and doing well.

Val.

staggeredtherum May 24 2006, 08:22:09 UTC

... I don't really know what to say. It was actually by chance that I ran across this comment. I haven't bothered looking at this livejournal since I left the US. I was checking my e-mail and noticed that I had an unread message in the "livejournal" folder... I almost ignored it, assuming it was just something I didn't bother reading in the past.... but something told me to check. And, there it was. There you were.

On countless occasions I've wanted to contact you. See how you were. See what new adventures you've undertaken. But... you made it clear to me that you never wanted to hear from me again, and I felt it would have done more harm than good. So respecting your wishes, I refrained. ...I'm sorry too. There were many things done and said that I regret, and I apologize. You know that I never meant to hurt you. It was the last thing that I wanted... but... looking back on it now, I see that there was alot I needed to learn. Had I known what I do now prior to meeting you, I'd have never allowed our relationship to decline the way it ( ... )

brokenbabydoll May 24 2006, 13:43:37 UTC

The last time we spoke, I was dating Sam. We were together for a year and a half, but broke up almost 3 months ago. We managed to remain friends through it. Last weekend, he was shot and killed. It has been difficult to handle \\ I'm having some health issues myself. I'm waiting on the test results.

This puts everything in perspective. I didn't want anything to happen and you'd never know that I was sorry. I know that there is a reason for everything. What happened to us was just life. I shouldn't hate you, or anybody, for that. It seems so trivial now.

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I'm glad to hear that you are doing well. Unfortunately, there is not much else for me to tell. I have an apartment with 2 cats, 2 1 fish, and the recent addition of a boyfriend. I finally got my driver's license. I'm a much better knitter now! I still have not gone to school, aside from that week or two at St. Phillips, but I think you knew about that. I'm much more stable as a person now- a far cry from that crazy little girl you knew :)

staggeredtherum May 24 2006, 18:49:50 UTC

...words cannot relay how truly sorry I am for your loss... reading this... was hard. I don't even know him. But knowing the pain that this brings to you...it pains me. I'm so sorry. Be strong girl. Life presents obstacles to test our strength. I know how strong you are. And I know that, in time, you will heal. It is the rememberance of those dearest to us that allows us to move on. Not attempting to heal scars through deleted memories... but instead... by carrying the good memories with us always.... allowing that person to be a part of our lives, and knowing that they would want our lives to go on... fruitful and happy. He loved you... I'm sure of this. What's not to love? So find peace in knowing that he would want your life to go on... he wouldn't want his passing to inhibit you... of this, I'm sure ( ... )

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