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[stained_clouds]

i actually have decent hours, tho i stil wish i worked more

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[ashadowsembrace]

Yep...thats pretty much how life is man...but is that monotiny so bad...forgot your regrets and start anew with new people...or something....its going to be an unchanging monotinous loop forever if you don't change it yourself....do something...well crazy and different...like move to another state at the first thought of it...If you could afford doing that, that is...well do something like that and it will uderly destroy the monotiny....unless your comfortable with this. (I'm not sure how serious you should take this advice, I'm kinda in a funky mood)
Ok that said....What are you trying to gain?

[stained_clouds]

see, the thing is...i like comfortable..i just need to find the comfortable that i wasnt.

and i cant aford anything, not even simple pleasures. i can afford my car and that is about it. everything i can save, is gonig towards me learning to tattoo one day.

[ashadowsembrace]

so your stuck...how did this happen?

[stained_clouds]

see, life is funny like that...

At the time you live life...and really its just passing you by...the echo of thought and memeories is what makes you realize what you do with your life...

sadly an echo cant be made until an action has already been made tho...such is life...

[ashadowsembrace]

...I don't see how that has anything to do with the subject.....other than being bitterly remenesent....Theres more to life than past memory....when you look at your life and only see the faint echos of your memories and thoughts you need to get out and create new memories...such as doing something crazy.

[stained_clouds]

the thing you need to realize about me...is no matter how hard i try, i dwell...no matter how many new memories i make, the old ones all still matter to me...

at times i fear i will go insane, because i do not know how to let go...losing is to painful to me, and it happens all to often...and i never let go of a lose...no matter how long...

part of me always holds onto things it should not...

[ashadowsembrace]

hmmm...Have you ever been called masicistic? Have you ever seen a phycologist about this? Mourning lose is normal, one must mourn to let that lose pass...Maybe it just takes you longer to mourn?

[stained_clouds]

i dont need anyone else in my head...me in there ios to much already. yes, i ahve seen someone, but i dont anymore.

yes, i have been alled masicistic.

i knowq i need to mourn...i just do for so long...