I didn't expect this to happen. This happiness I was going through did not last. It only lead to agonizing pain & annoyance. My mouth is absolutely killing me! I went to go put my expander back in after I had my afternoon snack & I almost jumped up to the ceiling. It brought tears to my eyes not from sadness, but from the pain ( Read more... )

I am listening to happy music. (hint! I'm kidding ( Read more... )

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I started feeling a little bit better yesterday because I was playing Football basically all day with Craig on playstation 2. It prevented me from thinking about stuff & kept me busy. Then we were eating dinner & the doorbell rung. I thought it was going to be one of Craig's friends that I could get to yell at, but I looked through the window ( Read more... )

Last night was the worst. Why? I cried so hard that I couldn't even breathe properly. Does anyone care? Of course not. Today is another day. Another day where I say I don't give a shit. Another day to look out the window & watch the happy little children feast on fun, while I sit on the otherside of that window & feast on loneliness. Again ( Read more... )

You see this poem that I wrote
It’s how I feel I quote
Read it at my funeral for all to hear
Maybe this time you could all cheer

And I think this time there's nothing you can do
For I got you back
Just like you stabbed me in the back -Eddie ( Read more... )

All your insults & your curses make me feel like I'm not a person & I feel like I am nothing, but you made me.. so do something.Last night me & Marissa met Sydny at the mall/movies & we saw The School of Rock. I recommend anyone to see it. It's good, funny, inspirational, & fun! I love Jack Black. After the movie we went to Fye. Me & Marissa ( Read more... )

Your mother came up to me, she wanted answer only she should know. It wasn't easy to deal with the tears that rolled down her face. I had no answers 'cause I didn't even know you. But these words they can't replace, the life you wasted ( Read more... )

Is it you? It is you.She felt a brush of cold air ( Read more... )

The wake was actually today. They had one from 2-4 & tonight from 7-9. My dad is not going because he is too tired, so that means I can't go. My mom went there for a little bit since she knew Gail would be there. They didn't have an open casket, but they had tons of pictures. My mom said there was one of Eddie, Gail, & Craig. (sigh) I really ( Read more... )