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[stalkingtime]

i hate everyone

some more than others.

so sometimes i get in these weird moods...the kind where i just want to forget i know anyone and just leave. i just want to crawl in a hole and never come out. i hate when people treat me like i don't exist. i decided that i'm done with some people tonight, i'm done trying. i've got friends, a few, but they work

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[ssidish77]

urg? im not totally sure what ur feeling but i suppose its somewhat like something i go through. (if im wrong forgive me and if u dont want to forgive me then dont let me know that im wrong)

im extremely shy and i have a very low self esteem (figures no?), so basically i never approach people and even friends and i have lost many friends and potential friends cuz i never approach them. as well when a friend seems to be ignoring me for some reason (one of which may be that its just my imagination.. my "see things in the worst possible light" way of thinking) i get like all depressed and im always to embarressed to bring it up. like at times when that happens i try and get rid of all my friends.. i mean, if i have no friedns then none of them can hurt me right? this probably has nothing to do with ur initial post but all the same. lol

[stalkingtime]

ah, i actually used to be a lot worse than i am now. i used to be very self concious, extremely shy like you mentioned, and i had very low self esteem. i've gotten past most of it, now i've just got some issues to work out. like for instance, when i am ignored by someone, i can usually tell..and i tend to flip out because i can't stand being ignored. i think it's the worst possible thing someone can do to me if they expect to stay my friend.

but at any rate, it's nice to have someone to relate these subjects with.

[ssidish77]

Well then, it seems that you like to live life dangerously. Ignoring someone is a personal favorite of mine, it is one one of the few weapons i have in my arsenal. Officially, on the internet you can be whatever you want but I wont lie to you. Im not a 6'3 210 muscle-bound beachboy (or anything remotely near that), so I had to learn to punish people with things like ignoring them.

Anyways, all of my issues stem from my being very uncertain about what there is to like about me etc. Therefore I always see people not liking me or wanting me to just go away. I wouldnt tell somosne that I dont like them, i would just be reaosnably polite and hope that they go away on their own. Therefore i see everyone doing it to me as well.

but at any rate im glad to be of some use ;)