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Me: Do you bother wondering what other people think?
Him: No... it's comical.
Me: What is?
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Between
The space where two lives overlap or gap (lacuna) makes me dizzy and woozy and sad. I can't live in two places. Learned that early on. Going back and forth, traveling, transmogrifying self, adapting shapeshifting to the environment I'm in batters my soul. Days afterward, re-inhabiting my space MY space, and without a rock to lean on I feel off ( Read more... ) -
You can't hold on to a fish
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I'm not an archivist in that I want to record what happens so I or other people will know. I don't take photographs of experiences. I live the experiences (and secretly hope others take photos of and for me). Today was so much good and love that I'd like to remember it ( Read more... ) -
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Junior high. Ohio History class. It's bits and pieces of memory. A note on my desk, anonymously telling me off. "You think you're so smart, and you're not." Signed from my EX-friends. I never figured out who it was from. I took it to heart that my friends were no longer my friends, and I quit them all and found new ones ( Read more... ) -
February Thaw
How is it so predictable an occurrence? That the flavor of spring is on the air for less than a week in this the longest of shortest of months. Means I want to be sure to enjoy the final weeks of Real Winter before it melts into spring and is gone for the year. -
What is this pause between inbreath and outbreath.
I feel like I'm not facing a lot of challenges in my life right now, and that that absence makes drastic personal change and growth less likely. She asked me last night if Ithaca was a big bowl of growth for me, and I said no. She suggested I fill in the blank with what it IS a big bowl of. My answer was "awesome". Because it's everything fun I've ( Read more... ) -
I worship not at the altar of the past
And yet, there is this box of things that I cannot get rid of. Found it when I was moving. Not found. I knew it was there. I knew some of the things inside: from Jake's first christmas, from the days I had a tape player, from... before. That which I couldn't quite let go. And photographs. A separate box for those. (From before digital, even). ( Read more... ) -
Birthday astrology reading notes
It's important for me to nurture and heal. It's important for me to learn and subsequently teach. It's important for me to connect and deepen my faith in whatever spiritual belief I have, and not to hide it. It's important for me to pay attention to my dreams, and begin night ritual for clarity and dream journaling (which will become more ( Read more... ) -
2010
2009 felt like a year of immense change, and while 2010 had more external changes happen in it for me, it was like they weren't my doing because of course that's what follows the first (e)motion. In a bathtub, pulling the plug is such a small movement, and yet it's no surprise that all the water drains out following that one exertion of will. And ( Read more... )