god im so numb

[stangflame]

im so numb right now i cant feel a fucking thing. im sitting here in front of this computer contemplating whether i can see it or not. i guess everyone is blind....its a matter of choice....how blind do you want to be. ill go to sleep, wake up and live another day wondering whether it will be my last. sometimes....i wish it could be. i have reasons

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hey there kido

[crazyrainbowkid]

KAYLAN MARIE your so mad! im sorry about things with you lately and im sorry i havent called you or anything.... but im ok.... im tryi to stop the things im doin n shit! im tryin to get my shit together b/c im goin down faster and harder! yeah i did a drug not too long ago and it made me realize alot of things and im not gonna go that shit anymore... its fuckin stupid and shit and i need to get my life in order... i just lost my best friend of 10 years and i dont give a damn anymore and i should but i dont.... i dont know what to do anymore... last night i was thinking about cutting again b/c im so numb and i was thinking the way i use to think when i did cut! i dont know what to do anymore kaylan tell me somethin....

Re: hey there kido

[stangflame]

ive been worried sick about you megan. i love you so much....i dream about you...see you everywhere....and with the distance between us there isnt much that i can do. i cant even show you that i love you....all i can do is tell you as many times as you can stand to hear it and one day i will be able to show you. i got drunk on sunday night and i had to drive birgitta home because she was so fucked up. i mean i never ever would have considered doing that but i guess when youre faced with the situation then things change. im glad you finally got a hold of me and i hope you get this soon. i love you, megan, and things wont ever change no matter how many times each of us fucks up. *kissez n hugz*