Wade and I are back together and we are moving into Vanessas house sometime mid november. I am so pumped for this. Its going to be so much fun being back with my old friends like Alex Jen Vanessa Melanie etc. The rent is so cheap and Wade and I get a huge ass room. My parents arent taking too kind to this. I just like to think of it as: "Whatever, ( Read more... )

I broke up with Wade about a week and a half ago and he still continues to make me feel like shit. Why do I let him bother me so much? He makes my anxiety worse ( Read more... )

So for the past few weeks I've been in and out of Burbank for anxiety and paranoia. I mean, I've had those symptoms before, but never this bad. Sometimes I wouldn't even leave the house. I was afraid to eat food because I was afraid people were tampering with it. But, I feel a lot better now. I still get anxious to go places..but overall I feel ( Read more... )

If a chicken had lips, could it whistle?

My life is probably awesome right now, but my state of mind does not allow me to see it. For the past few days I have been in the worst mood of my life. I have never been this negative before..and I'm pretty fucking negative. I'm trying to change that ( Read more... )

sdfklsdflsdkjfsdl fucking school starts tomorrow. I have to work every day this week except for Thursday. Everybody is quitting and Karen says im her best worker, so I gotta do it. The search for a car is not going to well. Nobody wants to help me. So, I guess I'm just going to have to do it myself. Me and my fucking 627 dollars ( Read more... )

Everyone. My summer has been alright, basically working about 4 or 5 days a week, sometimes 3 at a convenient store in Athol. I meet the craziest people there. Most of them only have 3 teeth, but they're cool, I guess. They mostly come in to play the lottery and by cheap cigarettes. Theres a lot of brands of cigarettes I didn't even know about. Its ( Read more... )

Once again I have resorted to THE cheapest vodka in the world: Popov. Gross. Me and Wade shared a whole bottle on Monday. It was disgusting, but it was fun at the same time. I pulled a hey mister for cigarettes and the guy bought us a bottle as well ( Read more... )

I was going to write about how the movie Pinocchio was really creepy and weird, but I decided not to. So now I'm not going to write anything. Except for this.

Arrgh. I feel like everyone in my life is ten times more successful than I am. I don't have a job, I don't have a car, I don't have money, I'm falling so behind at school, and I just feel disgusting. No one will hire me because McDonald's is giving me bad references, I bet. And yes, there is a way that they can give you a bad reference..The manager ( Read more... )