Well... today was just a better day. Had more time to spend in the Home and even though i had another argument with Mike, Master Keiran was there to talk me through it. i'm feeling like a part of the Home again... and i still miss Master... but not as desperately as i have over the last few days. Mike is being a butt head again but i've almost come ( Read more... )

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For some reason, an amazing sense of emptiness just consumed me. kiti came online and said that she still hasn't spoken with Master... nor does she think she will any time soon. i think that it's finally coming to a head... i'm finally realizing that He's gone... and i have no idea when He's coming back. i am Owned by a shadow... He consumes me... ( Read more... )

Well, i made it through the day and all i had to do was sit in a room for hours in silence and read a book. We were supposed to go in for jury selection at 9:00am this morning. There was a delay and we were released for lunch around 10:30 and told we didn't need to return until 1:30 so, i went to Barnes & Noble and found a couple books and an ( Read more... )

Good morning journal! Not that there is much good to it, mind you. i haven't been up this early in almost 3 months... i'm on my way to jury duty. Wanted to post the dance she performed last night in the Home for Master to see. Having been the first time she has done so in many years she wishes He had been there to see it... she prays He will be ( Read more... )

performed 8/29 for Master Fire-Soul and Master Keiran ( Read more... )

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i just got home... and dinner was soooo good. Mom and Sally and i went down PCH to Dana Point and we found a little Italian place... all of the waiters were HOT... mom was even oogling the owner!! i had to laugh at her... We had some delicious dessert that the owner bought for us. Sally and i shared creme brule with wild berries. It was absolutely ( Read more... )

i just got back from the school and i was approved for the student loans! i called EDD and now i just have to wait for the letter telling me when my phone interview is. i'm keeping my fingers crossed and hope that i get word one way or another before school starts... or at least that week. i need to hear something by the 18th of September or i will ( Read more... )

Slept restlessly thinking about today. Had to wake up in a bit of a panic as i realized there was the slightest chance that i had told Alejandra that i would be in at 9am instead of 11 like i have been planning all week. Called and spoke to the school and they set me straight though... i'll be going in at 11. i'm already dressed and ready to go (at ( Read more... )