its become apparent to me that randy and i havent talked for awhile. i think we're done, ive told him we NEED to talk and i see that it obviously doesnt matter. i really miss when it used to be me and him early in the morning just hanging out and smoking, talking about nothing but it meant everything. i feel like thats gone now. it hurts to think ( Read more... )

so apprently the new craze is asphyxiation. have a friend strangle you right until youre about to pass out and you'll get "high ( Read more... )

i didnt sleep all that well last night. my neck hurts.

but oh well. thanks to all who wished me a happy b-day it meant alot. and to those that made the older than dirt-over the hill jokes, your day will come! bwahahaha.

anyways, mondays suck. thanks everyone.

im off to find pills that make your head stop pounding.

today is my birthday and yay im happy. call me im gettign an answering machine of DOOOOOOOm.

it's over. we're "just friends" which entails he'll find someone new, someone better and i'll smile and we'll pretend its okay when everybody knows, EVERYBODY KNOWS,we're anything but okay. at least i wont be. and i know i couldnt look at him and pretend i feel nothing. i've loved him for so long, and for 2 years i wished i could just have 1 more ( Read more... )

so tomarrow should be a good day cause im hanging out with lovely people, this weekend should be great and SUNDAY is my birthday. it'd be great if people called me ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like i cant do this ( Read more... )

so someone called and said the dreaded words of DOOM, "Kara i have a crush on you." they're only dreaded because i never know what to say in response...i laughed...which was probably the utmost wrong thing to do but whatever ( Read more... )

so yesterday i hung out with an ex. but yet i kept thinking about someone else. im really confused...

my birthday is next sunday, im old. but 1 year until im legal and able to get an apartment!

i am so confused though, its like theres always something missing. im happy but i feel like im forgetting something all the time. its weird.

sorry to foo-face, we need to kick "it" again sometime because i owe you hugs. not drugs. ha ( Read more... )