you will always be my best friend...

[starbutcher]

16/09/09

i just can't do this anymore... i feel like there is this constant drain that is sucking the life out of me and i just need that energy so much. i can't afford to lose it.

there are so many things i am terrified of. what if i go through  with all of this and i lose all of my friends? what will i do about money? where will i live?

i am

Comments

[hello_kiri]

Oh hon I'm so so sorry, I hope writing all this out helped you a bit. Be strong, I know you are.

[starsonthewater]

Don't be afraid, my beast. You aren't doing this to be malicious, with an intention to hurt Husband, or for any reason but that this is what needs to be happening now for you to feel right. This is a chapter in your life that you need to write.
Of anyone I've ever known, you've always been the most self aware & I don't doubt for a second that this decision didn't just pop into your head one morning. You've pondered this; you've considered all the options; and this is what you've come down to.

The worst part is all the "what ifs," and all that's unknown... and yet, at the same time, you know that this is what needs to be happening right now, and it really, truly, can only get better from here.

One breath at a time. One step at a time. Slow, slow, slow.

I wish I was there ♥