babysitting.. woot

[stardustsecond]

so i'm up bright and early.. thankfully the kids aren't yet. ^_^ the little girl is soo cute.. she's 1/4 korean and it shows. she has the eyes and awesome asian hair.. long, thick and straiiight.. cept it's brown with a hint of red. i'm jealous. but little miss 7-going-on-20 has some serious attitude adjusting to do while i'm here.. heh heh. great

Comments

Dar,

[sweet_tart15]

I almost don't know what to say to you! Why didn't you ever email me back when I asked about him? It's almost as if you've changed into a completely different person . . . I read your entire LiveJournal today and all I can feel is this numb shock. Maybe you should look over everything from beginning till now. You're always depressed, tired, discontent, lonely, stressed, and once in a while you're boing. Boing. Boing. I wish I could just fly to GA to have a talk with you. And anyone who knows me well enough knows that I hate talking on the phone. Do you even know me? It scares me, the lost and helpless feeling I feel for you. From the scattered, short conversations I've had with you on the phone, I could tell that something has changed. Something isn't right. I realize that journals are a way to vent and to work out the trials of the day, but I think it's a bit much. It's almost a constant. If only you knew how much your Heavenly Father loves you. If only you knew how special and loved you are! You were once happy

hey Eugenia

[stardustsecond]

Thank you for your thoughtful note.. it's always good to hear what you have to say. I didn't email back when you asked because I didn't know where to start. I've thought volumes about it and I could keep on going forever.. it's a subject I find myself analyzing more often than I want to. There are still some things that are unresolved.. or things that don't make sense. I guess I'll just have to forget about it for now and things will fall into place later. I know talking on the phone really isn't your thing but there is this one issue that I'm having a lot of conflicting feelings about.. I'm not sure exactly how to put it in words and I've barely touched on this subject with only one person but you're the one I want to talk it out with.. out of every aspect of my relationship with Matt, it's what matters most. But it can wait for another couple of weeks. I'll see you soon

[poetictragedee]

my comment is going to pale in comparison to that!! wow!! long long...well i know what youve been goin through I really seriously do...I went through the same thing kind of with Mycah...and it was a while ago lol but it does leave an impression for sure...its probably going to take time to heal...and its not goin to feel much better anytime soon...just keep yourself busy..and you know what...you get some real good art and poetry out of it...for sure!! lol well I guess I don't have much else to say except if i can make you can!! lol cya and have a great summer!

[stardustsecond]

awwww thanks brant. yea.. time to get some creative juices flowing. i can feel a poem gestating right now LoL. have you drawn anything lately? ttyl and have fun in idaho!

[butchrawker]

Wow...
Guys + Girls = Bad
Guys - Girls, Girls - Guys = Worse

thats about how it goes.

Devin

[butchrawker]

Takes some time, but you'll be alright.

[stardustsecond]

amen to that