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[starin84]

what i've definitely learned about myself: i tend to think i want something, that it'd be perfect for me until i'm close enough to know i could probably have it. then, at the least, i second-guess myself and decide it's not what i want after all

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[anonymous]

so heres my take on it.....its a defense mechanism that you've somehow subconsciously enacted in order to protect yourself, b/c you're afraid that the job or relationship or whatever couldnt possibly live up to the image of it that you've created in your mind. eh?

[starin84]

is that you sa? SIGN IN PUNKKKKK

yeah, i like to call it "Great Gatsby Syndrome." I do have it, but I'm not so sure that's really the problem here. I just think I'm scared, can't make a committment, and really just don't want to settle for anything less than what that "one thing" is I'm supposed to be doing, or that "one person" I'm supposed to be with.

Some people always have to have something to reach for, they're never satisfied with what they've found or where they are, no matter where that is. I don't know how much that's going to hold true for me as I go on, but it's a thought.

But maybe I'm just protective of myself. I donno, I think I've confused myself.

[lambrock18]

oops....i dunno how i managed to leave that anonymously. annnnyways. the only problem with your method is that itd be terribly hard to know who "the one" is before putting your neck out there and taking the risk. you're definitely right tho....there are a lot of people who are never satisfied, no matter the situation......myself included. ive only had one relationship ever live up to the hype i created in my head......my first relationship. i absolutely admire the fact that you're not willing to settle for anything less than perfection....but how will you know when you've got it if you dont have some horrific relationship experiences to judge it by? yea, so its only 7:30 in the a.m. so im not fully awake yet and i have no idea if im getting my point across.

[starin84]

with the exception that i've had a couple of HORRIFIC relationship experiences. yes, without actually being in a relationship with them.