i'm having too much of a strong reaction to my current situation to ignore it. i hate to have to be blunt about things, but that's what it's coming down to. glad i had a choice in the matter. i need to get some fucking balls and just say what it is i need to say. i can't play this game any longer. i want out. to think i made a mistake blows my mind ( Read more... )

yep... everything falls apart with me. i can't uphold relationships. i can't deal with commitment. or i want commitment with the wrong person. i don't know. apparently, showing affection to my friends is frowned upon. hey, i haven't seen you in years, but let me give you a good, stiff handshake. that certainly gets the point across that i'm happy ( Read more... )

DIRTY PIRATE HOOKER 4 LYFE!!!!!!!!!!!

this will be randomness of sorts... most likely starting with the most important information... right... here goes ( Read more... )

funny... i thought i had it all figured out. apparently, i didn't. i think i'm more of a mess than i'm letting on to myself and everyone else.
fuck.

it may be time to drop a class. because i am going crazy and doing all my projects half-assed and i don't like that in the least. the only class that really matters to me in the least is my graphic design class.i can do without photo or printmaking. photo will probably get the axe before printmaking because i love printmaking sooo much. but i'm ( Read more... )

this weather is miserable... it makes me think way too much. not that thinking's a bad thing but i hardly have room in my brain to analyze ANYTHING. i should try something called not thinking and just focus all my attention on art right now. because, really, it's what i need to do ( Read more... )

i never know what i want. i'm so undecided about certain issues. something's not sitting right with me... i need to figure this shit out before it's too late. too bad for me it IS too late. dammit.

so it was a great weekend. i had an awesome time in Minneapolis...well, St. Paul, with my family and i'm soooo glad i went. it's always when i'm not in state and i'm surrounded with people who i don't see a lot of that i really get to thinking. and i feel i spent an awful lot of time thinking this weekend, even though i was surrounded by people 24/ ( Read more... )

gah...i swear i'm an idiot.

i wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit my throat...seriously