So I hadn't written in this in about 2 years so I figured no one read it, that's why I started writing in it again recently when I needed to vent and get somethings worked out in my head. It has come to my attention that some people do read this including my husband. I'm not sure how I feel about that but I guess it's ok. One thing though I don't ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning feeling much more at peace. So I'm good the rest of the world be damned :-P Had a math test today I'm sure I did great, missed my other class I was to damn tired and the bed was to comfortable. Chris and I finally went to see the accountant to set everything up for the business and take care of some stuff so I feel better ( Read more... )

Nobody ever gets me. Ugh I can't even type what I want. I hate my life I hate everyone . I wish I would just drop dead except that for once in my life I have one person that would actually care so now I gotta feel guilty about that

Everytime I go to sleep I wish that I don't wake up, never seems to work that way :-( So now I am awake for another day. Start the day with some nice algebra, followed by some self medicating etc. Seems like noone understands me anymore. Chris is wonderful as he could possibly be, but even he doesn't know how I feel most of the time and the things ( Read more... )

Everyday I sit and wonder if my mom passed down the one thing I never wanted, her insanity. Everyday I see more and more of her in me. I love her, but I hate her. In me I see the things I hate about her more and more as each day goes by.... I don't want anyone else to see it. Recently I have been depressed, I am really not sure why I guess maybe it ( Read more... )

I'm so inlove...

I am so confused. oh well I guess it comes with being pregnant. This wasn't what I wanted at this time but it happened and now I don't know what to do. It scares me so much that Chris and I won't make it through this, I've never felt the way I feel about Chris before. I love him so much, it's like I just know he's the one I am ment to be with ( Read more... )

EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS = Favorite Spice + Last Vacation Spot ( Read more... )

OMG so iratating I finally updated and the computer booted me so I lost my entry so all you get is hello and yes I am alive

This journal has now been made friends only. So if your not on my friends list you can't read it sorry charlie.