I am once again desperate, having been stuck in a rut for several weeks now, and so I am planning to jump start my weight loss the easiest way I know. In fact, in the past I've almost always needed to fast to really lose weight. It is really hard for me to lose it the healthy way, though I suspect I've been doing things wrong lately ( Read more... )

I am not perfect. Therefore I am an embodiment of failure.

Finally, it is finals week, and I'm almost through the summer quarter! I need a break. My early class has me exhausted, since I'm not getting enough sleep (I live with night owls and have issues that make me anxious about sleep). If I can just wake up early for three more days, then I can proceed on to summer vacation! Finals are tomorrow and ( Read more... )

I decided that I was getting off track partly because I wasn't focussing on things the right way, so I'm going to make an effort to re-organize the way I think and do things to help me get my life more in order. I think that I might need to be more creative about how I organize my time because of my ADD tendencies. I just can't go about dry and ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm so stuck in the same place right now. I am so afraid that I will always be as I am right now and never be able to change myself for the better. That has become the resounding fear that plays constantly over and over again in the back of my mind ( Read more... )

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I binged tonight. I'm rather disappointed in myself, too. I was doing so well. I was practically living on the fruits and veggies I got at the awesome new farmers market in town, and then I went and bought pop tarts and cookies and ate them for dinner. WTF was I thinking ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my 26th birthday. I have to admit that I'm a bit more freaked out about it than any recent birthday (I totally freaked out at 10 and 12, too, because I was afraid of getting older. Crazy, eh?). I'm just rather afraid of being an adult and getting stuck in a fat body. I'm determined to lose as much as I can by August, and then ( Read more... )

I feel gross. I've been eating like a pig this week, and I feel just disgusting. I feel dirty, like I'm covered in filth that I just can't scrub off. That filth is my fat, and I can't get rid of it quick enough. No amount of clawing at my skin will remove it from my distended belly and oversized hips ( Read more... )

Yea! I'm losing weight again, and I went clothes shopping today and bought a size 7 in jeans from the juniors sections. I haven't worn that size since high school!

I have a long way to go still, but I'm getting closer.