Comments | starlit_horizon: I hate the way I feel

starlit_horizon

I hate the way I feel

Jul 28, 2004 07:04

I get pissed off about this so easily. Instead of being hateful, having a horrible attitude towards this, full of complaints, i so couldve went for this differently with a smile and a positive attitude. But I didnt because Im a fool and now Im left feeling hopeless. I really cannot stand the way I feel.
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ked July 28 2004, 05:43:53 UTC

Sweetie. I love you. I'm sorry that you feel so bad about yourself...but I still love you and God has always loved you and has always thought you were awesome. I dunno if you feel like it's just yourself that's bringing you down, but if it is...stop being so hard on yourself..."We are our own worst enemies"...everyone is so critical of themselves and for no reason, myself included. Friends don't even look at you as critical as you do yourself, God, sees you cloaked in white by the power of the Holy Spirit and Jesus dying on the cross and being raised from the dead. If it's the media getting you down, the media never shows anything in the real light and always is out to find the worse in celebrities and to find the "prettiest" people to endorse their products so other people will feel "ugly" and by their product. The truth is, every single person is different and that's how God intended it to be. God thinks each and every one of us is the most beautiful thing he's created, including yourself. God looks at you and says "You are ( ... )

starlit_horizon July 29 2004, 09:37:33 UTC

thankyou katie :)
love you!!!<3

exactly....? chickmunk July 28 2004, 16:01:19 UTC

dude. what can i say. i feel worthless right now too. zero confidence. yay.
i hate it. i hate feeling intimidated. i hate feeling helpless.
what is confidence? time and time again i thought i had it.
but it was just another fasod.
but hold on. we are told we need to love ourselves (just as you put it) and have high self-esteem for our confidence cloaks or whatever you wanna call it. dude. i want to be my own individual.
but i realized this.
i am not my own.
the world does not revolve around me. it's all about God, no matter how much everyone denies that fact. the world's view on selfesteem is complete BS! so based on shallow things such as looks and material things. even personality alone is a stupid focus - who ever looks at CHARACTER anymore??
stuff gets turned around really quick when i look at God and realize that He has chosen me out of this world for a higher purpose. He has a greater purpose for EVERYONE - if we just choose to accept - to deny ourselves, take up our crosses, and follow Him. wayyyy hard. but so worthit ( ... )

Re: exactly....? starlit_horizon July 29 2004, 09:41:42 UTC

Megs, i understand exactly what you mean. You took all the words. Well...about 3 months ago i would've said that exact same thing.
But Im glad you see it like that.
really glad.
Because megs, you can find that confidence in God. If you feel thats how it is, that it really is all about God, well then you have a renewed hope. Yay.
You are really such an amazing person though megs. I hope that someday you can began to grasp that. You are awesome.
love you!!!!!!!!! <3
and thanks :)

Re: exactly....? chickmunk July 29 2004, 13:35:14 UTC

ok yeah, i can find that confidence in God...but do you?
thanks though babe. i tell you i wouldnt be near this way without God though.
i would be in depression majorly.
so - man i misss you! we gotta talk!!!
LOVE YA! megs

Re: exactly....? starlit_horizon July 29 2004, 15:15:01 UTC

good ;)
no.
well im glad that hes done that for ya :)
love you!! and i miss you too!!!! bye!