These last few days have been a true test to Jason and my relationship. Bad shit happened and we've made it through. And I feel sooo relieved. I figure if this didn't kill our relationship, not much can....I'll be writing a much more detailed entry later when I'm done cleaning...

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I have one more thing to say tonight before I go to bed...I'm horny...Oh so horny. And I'm too tired to do anything about it. That's a little sad....Especially after the other morning when Jason stayed over night here and we ended up doing it 4 times within like 3 hours. And I thought I was tired then...but I guess I can get up for that anytime ( Read more... )

Tonight I went and saw Matt and Chelsea's new son. Oh my God! He is one of the most beautiful babies I've ever seen! He was sooo tiny but he was just precious. As soon as they handed him to me, I started crying. I couldn't believe he was one of my best friends babies. And then Chelsea started tearing up. I felt kind of stupid. But it was ( Read more... )

And then again...it happens again...am I a drug addict? What the fuck am I doing? I have friends who just had a baby, whom I haven't seen yet and I'm supposed to go see them in the hospital and I was busy doing something way less important and I want to kick my own ass...

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Hmmm. It's funny how a person's mind works when they're "under the influence" so to speak. More like fucked up. Some substances just have that draw, that push-me pull-me effect. No matter how much you say "I'm done with this shit", all of a sudden it's there, available and so you say to yourself "One last time. This will be our last hurrah!" ( Read more... )

Well, last night wasn't what I expected exactly. Ended up doing some crazy shite again. Was not our intentions. Jason keeps saying it's his fault but it's not really. It's no one's fault and I wish he would stop that shit ( Read more... )

I just got the cutest platform mary-janes...burgundy with playboy bunnies on the side. I think I'm going to wear them tonight when I go see Jason. He likes them...a lot! So I'll dress up a little for him. Cuz we are going to have some fun. yeah yeah!!!

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