Quarterflashing

[starpush]

I worry sometimes that I have lost the ability to cry. Like maybe one really can Quarterflash themselves through experience and emerge with a hardened heart and the ability to swallow back any tears, even when a moment or a day or a week is heartbreaking. When one focuses on becoming stronger can we reach a point of strength equals numbness or

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Beautifully put....

[anonymous]

J - this resonates more than I can explain... you have a truly beautiful way of writing it and I thank you for sharing it. I went through a "jaded" phase - well, that's what I called it - and focused on moving through it all as it seemed to be part of the emotional/maturing process over the past 3 years. It is certainly an amazing roller coaster, except during this part I felt stuck between e bottom of a hill and 2 possible directions.
One way seemed to lead toward where I am going today, the other toward a bitter, cynical life that I would never recover from. I was blessed at the time to have started a friendship with a man who's situation was similar to mine (though his divorce was many years ago) -- he helped me just through companionship and lots of Saturdays spent drinking coffee, chatting and playing card games.
I still have moments I struggle with, but I am a better version of myself - and finally, human again. It will come for you too... with patience, friends, and new memories with your boys.
-An old friend from Hawthorne

[remlap]

You know it could just be the ADs. They are very good, and I've taken them myself for years, but they do inhibit emotions a bit sometimes. Take carrot yourself and dont beat yourself up to much, you'll cry again when you need to - I'm sure.

[sepiashadows]

I went through a period of time similar to this, numb and just kind of existing, not really living. I think this results from an emotional overload, there is only so much a person can take.

Having said that..you will get to that place again, where you will be able to handle all these emotions and you can allow yourself to feel again. You have such a warm heart, your humanity is there, waiting for you to be ready to put yourself out there again. Xox