adam apparently hates me now. i just can't deal with it right now ( Read more... )

so today and sometime last week... Johanna and I went shopping at JCPenney

( shopping! )

i was thinking and....

just a warning for everyone out there who hasn't learned already;
don't like me or date me - I am going to let you down.

i am nowheres near the point in my life where i can safely attach feelings to someone in that degree
save you/me the pain & stress

you know who you are...
sorry i let you down. i really am.

i really like this boy.
but it scares me because i dont know what his intentions are.
i dont even know what my intentions are.

ily bffl. stop stressing, its going to be okay. we're all having a tough time, but we will get through it.

im currently enjoying the worst hangover in the world.
once again, an amazing weekend.

I am so angry with my dad. Given he is my stepdad, I will excuse him from some things but he promsied to treat me like his daughter and to love me because hes seen what the two past father figures have done to me. I have been abandoned again and again and this is what he does to me? I swear, all I have ever been is a pawn in my mothers ( Read more... )

today is my mommys birthday. i miss her like crazy and it kills me.

im going to mass again this weekend, this time im going to spend a little more time with sean. yay!
i really should write this fucking paper. ughhh

sooo, johannas birthday was yesterday. we went to portland and while they were at the hookah bar, I went to the big sleazy and hung out with blaine & morgan. jesse ended up getting me into the show by putting me on the list or whatever (though I am sure I could have walked in anyway) so I watched cambiatas set and then met up with johanna, fletch, ( Read more... )

holy shit. fun night last night. val, jess, yohan and I went to mass to support the lannenfall boys. after that, we hung out with them and partied. then, this morning we went to the mall with them and headed home. so much fun.

Horse, Yohan and I!!


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