On the path of Shamanic wisdom...without the drugs

[starrla]

My journey starts today. Yes, I thought about it. Yes, I know it's risky, but I'm taking precautions. I feel compelled to do it for some odd reason. However, I do realize that the exercises I will be doing can ultimately change my personality, which I guess is the point, but I don't want anything worthwhile to be destroyed. I've made lists of

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[shanwickoceanic]

I wish I knew you well enough to answer this properly. You always seem to bring some new insight to a discussion, and I'd hate to see that go - maybe that's an answer.

Will you be posting updates, or keeping it private? Is this a journey with a defined end-point (even if that's "I'll know I'm there when I get there"), or rather a case of seeing how far you can get in the time available?

Either way, my hat's off to you for starting. Good luck with it all.

[starrla]

Well, I actually just finished the my series of exercises today. It is of course by no means the end of spiritual exploration- the self-deprivation exercises were mainly to get me started and incapacitate my eog a bit so I could get to the core of myself. I did document everything in a notebook that I have, and am considering posting some of it on livejournal, though I am not sure if others would be interested in reading it. The poem I last wrote and posted was during my three days of fasting and sleep deprivation, which was first scrawled quite illegibly into my notebook before I posted it to livejournal.

[anonymous]

you can only do a little bit each day. it can take a lifetime and is no easy task. you will find yourself remembering things you thought were long forgotten. you will start becoming 'too' honest with yourself and may be trapped in the vacuum of self discovery for quite some time. it can become lonely and mind consuming, but once you start there is no looking back. you will feel as if you are making progress, and you will be, but you can only do a little bit each day.

i would like to see you able to be assertive and really say whats on your mind around people. its not your burden to please people during confrontations. though you have this habit, it seems to be only a matter of confrontation. it isnt just the interaction, its being that same person once it is over and never wearing masks. some people rather have an honest friend instead of a polite acquaintance.

-guy

[kevinh456]

I never said don't do it. I just said make sure you know what you're looking for and what you want so you don't go through all that shit just to be unhappier than when you started.

thank you!

[starrla]

I wasn't referring to you in particular. I actually took your advice and did write down more clear-cut goals and prepared more before undertaking this. Thank you for talking with me. You were actually able to provide me with more insight than "it's not good for you." It's been going pretty well so far by the way. I've had some pretty intense experiences already. We can talk more on that later though.