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starrsadistik

File: Human illusion

Aug 19, 2005 05:00

"There have always been ghosts in the machine, how do we explain this random behavior? Random segments of code? Or is it something more ( Read more... )

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mydollparts August 19 2005, 13:01:07 UTC

That made me really sad. I don't trust anyone with my heart except my cat. =)

starrsadistik August 19 2005, 15:24:02 UTC

I am with you on that one...my cat has my heart as well.

cmidnightsky August 19 2005, 13:35:49 UTC

iamsolitude August 19 2005, 13:48:52 UTC

I can retlate to you man. I was in a 4 year relationship that ended on a really shitty note (finding out she'd been whoring around 3 years in college w frat boys, oh the irony) and for the last two years it really fucked with me on many levels. I was single the entire time, never letting myself get too close to anyone. I finally realized that while I can never fully get over that, I needed to let go. Its understandable to feel that way. It sucks, but so does life and just about everything in it.

starrsadistik August 19 2005, 15:26:57 UTC

Good god! You got stuck with some fucked up shit...cheating does put one in a mindset that is unreal. It's something no one prepares for and hits you completed blind sided.

decembermalice August 19 2005, 16:03:52 UTC

I can kind of relate, maybe perfectly though because this happened to me in high school, which as I see it now, wasn't quite as "real" as life since then, since people grow up a lot since then. Anyway, my boyfriend of three years (on and off, but it still counts,) broke up with me and started going out with a close friend of mine. I had no idea how to recover from all of the emotions I was feeling. I didn't know what to do with all the emotions and dedication I had left that weren't being returned. I couldn't stand to date anyone else because everything felt awkward. I had trouble every day seeing them together, and that took a toll on my relationships. Any kind of sexual contact freaked me out because it didn't feel right in my mind. I felt so broken, and unfortunately, it took me a long time to heal. At least there is a positive side. I'm a much stronger person now and I am better at coping with relationship problems and endings, except for the recent one which kind of brought me back to this place again, although at least a little ( ... )

crimson_agony August 19 2005, 20:48:25 UTC

Damn, I know it's tough. Believe me. Especially with what I've been thru. I haven't had solid relationships to really call it love or nor should I have dared to ( ... )