dammit i keep commenting under this. so much for having an lj that no one knew about.

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so i'm by myself again. everyone's gone. its me and livejournal ( Read more... )

i'm so worried about him.
even when he's not my boyfriend at all i still want to take care of him and make his life perfect.
but this is difficult.

i don't know whether to cry or to punch a hole in the wall (as if i could ( Read more... )

hmm. maybe its a passing mood. but right now i am just not feeling the whole highschool vibe. i am feeling the jesus get me out of here vibe, but the whole yeah we're seniors live it up thing....no. everyone is annoying (not everyone really). but i mean i'm just sick of the drama and the and some of the immaturity among groups. i don't want to talk ( Read more... )

this is all my fault. i've made myself unhappy. through how i react to everything, how i percieve everything. so i've decided to list some positive things in hopes to make me happier ( Read more... )

apparently i'm not good enough.
i don't know what i've done to make my mother dislike me so.
all i heard over everything was a lot of "she's" and "sleeps all day and stays up all night"...whatever.
you know i've literally forgotten how to be happy on my own. my heart's not in anything anymore. someone help me.

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i've felt like hell the whole day. i'm too nervous to eat. more like the anxious feeling you would get on the way home to see if your house is still left after a hurricane. you pray to god that everything you've ever had is still there, intact. or it could be completely destroyed, leveled, flattened, or it could have been swept away completely like ( Read more... )