The Queen of Shooting Herself in the Foot

[starry_haze]

I am an incurable optimist, but honestly, there are moments when I seriously hate myself. Not in a suicidal way, of course, but in that "why do I keep doing the same stupid things over and over again?" type of way. (Well, I know why-sin-but that's not what this entry is about

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[dancerxo]

internet addiction is a phase and while some are extreme cases, i managed to get out of it. the whole you know which forum consumed my life back then and wow, looking back, i am really shocked at how insane i was. @_@

i also went through the whole i need to do my assignments but i just can't get it done. i blame newton's 1st law of inertia :p but once i actually start, i move fast because i have no choice - not much time left and i kick myself for not starting earlier. then it repeats for the next assignment, and the next and the next but i must say i hand in everything on time. one of my proudest achievement was my thesis. i started a little later than everyone but i made myself hand in 2 days ahead of deadline :D lol i still procrastinate, yeah.. but i guess because work = money = livelihood, i have to finish everything i have to by the deadlines set by bosses.

[starry_haze]

i blame newton's 1st law of inertia :p but once i actually start, i move fast because i have no choice - not much time left and i kick myself for not starting earlier. then it repeats for the next assignment, and the next and the next...
I am exactly the same way. Especially as of recently. I've learned to move much more quickly and with greater urgency than I used to because unlike in high school, I understand that "turning in something is better than turning in nothing." I just need to finish something and stop being a perfectionist! I no longer see deadlines as flexible, and that change in perspective has helped me finish my assignments in a much more timely fashion.

I always want to kick myself, though, because when I'm finally on a roll and making easy progress, I realize how less stressed I would've been if I had started the assignment earlier. I tend to cut my deadlines extremely close, and even just a matter of an hour or half an hour makes the difference between finishing early and having to run to class to submit the

[starry_haze]

Thanks, David! *hugs* You're right! I do know what I need to do. I just need to wholeheartedly depend on God and stop relying on my own strength because I know that every time I start thinking I'm self-sufficient, I fall into the same traps of procrastination, mental blocks, and so on.

"I can do all things through him who strengthens me." -- Philippians 4:13

I just need to stop thinking that I'm strong enough on my own. ;)