Sounds to me like some form of insomnia or mania. I have Seasonal Affective Disorder; in the winter, during my depression, I'm still exhausted after 9 or 10 hours, but in the summer I flip around to mania and often run on 6 or less. And, when one of my most powerful alter-egos was spawning years ago, she often kept me up late into the night.
I have SAD too, but I've never had this happen before--and the energy isn't physical. My body is exhausted but my psychic energy levels are high. I'd like to do a transfer but I think all I'm gonna manage today is my usual cup of chai. Omgs.
Yes, that's what my mania and whatnot is. I honestly truly want to sleep but I've got too many ideas rolling around and around in my head, this pressing need to be up and doing something though I physically can't, because there is so much to do. A lot of the time it's a creativity overload, for me. I've been doing well so far this summer but at my lowest point last year, I was only getting 4 hours of sleep, and I was unable to drag myself to work in the morning for being so tired but I just couldn't sleep.
I'm sure it doesn't manifest itself the same way in everyone, but if I was going through what you're going through now, that's what I'd blame it all on.
Yeah, this isn't insomnia or anything like that. I sleep well nine times out of ten, and I can't describe this as mania. It's purely energy--it's not thoughts or emotions or anything like that. It's literally energy surges.
I've had people telling me to look up kundalini awakenings because it sounds like it. It may be so.
Study some basic energy manipulation skills: ground, center, and shield. Grounding connects you to a stable outside energy source; it allows you to dump excess energy, draw energy if you're depleted, and help protect yourself from energy surges. Centering evens up your internal energy conduits and your awareness of what's "you" vs. what's the rest of the world. Shielding creates an adjustible barrier between you and the outside world, allowing you to ensure that other people's shit remains other people's shit. A very simple set of instructions is here: http://www.path-ways.com/articles.php?action=show&showarticle=547
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Re: Try this...starry_wingsJuly 21 2008, 16:37:23 UTC
I've been doing that sort of stuff most of my life. I'm wondering if all of my typical techniques are crap, or have been rendered crap due to recent spiritual changes.
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To test if your techniques are working, there are various things to try. Frex, for shielding, go to a place or person you typically find irritating. Raise and lower your shields and see if you feel any different with them up vs. down.
Sometimes things that used to work stop working, especially if you've grown a new talent or an old one has gotten stronger. Other times there will be particular types of energy that get through. And anything tuned to block natural energy generally won't block synthetic energy, and vice versa; if you've been running only one of those and the other suddenly becomes perceptible to you, previous techniques likely won't cover it until retuned.
Sounds like your Kundalini beginning to rise. Eating healthy, meditation, and some regular chakra work should help out if that's the case. Yoga is also good. It can be pretty rough at the beginning, but the more in touch you are with what's going on inside, the gentler the rising can be.
There's a great book if you can find it at a library or bookstore, called "Wheels of Life" by Anodea Judith. It has meditations, physical exercises, symbolic associations, pictures, and academic discourse about each chakra. Really worth reading!
I'm reminded of my own awakening to magic and religion. At one point, the best comparison I could make is that I thought I was about to do a magical girl transformation. :)
I'd go with the advice from ysabetwordsmith; it sounds on the same track I'd suggest, but much more experienced.
Oh yeahhh. I didn't even think about my sexuality--that was about 3-4 years ago.
And my last major awakening... and it was seriously mindblowing... was last year. That was when various events started which made me realize my True Will.
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I have SAD too, but I've never had this happen before--and the energy isn't physical. My body is exhausted but my psychic energy levels are high. I'd like to do a transfer but I think all I'm gonna manage today is my usual cup of chai. Omgs.
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I'm sure it doesn't manifest itself the same way in everyone, but if I was going through what you're going through now, that's what I'd blame it all on.
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I've had people telling me to look up kundalini awakenings because it sounds like it. It may be so.
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http://www.path-ways.com/articles.php?action=show&showarticle=547
I saw that you added me to your Friends list -- thank you! -- so I added you to mine and dropped by here to browse.
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Glad to have you on board! Thanks for adding me back. ^_^
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To test if your techniques are working, there are various things to try. Frex, for shielding, go to a place or person you typically find irritating. Raise and lower your shields and see if you feel any different with them up vs. down.
Sometimes things that used to work stop working, especially if you've grown a new talent or an old one has gotten stronger. Other times there will be particular types of energy that get through. And anything tuned to block natural energy generally won't block synthetic energy, and vice versa; if you've been running only one of those and the other suddenly becomes perceptible to you, previous techniques likely won't cover it until retuned.
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Yeah this is going to be a lot of trial and error. I'm getting HIGHLY sensitized.
Best description is this, I think: it's like entering a room where it's painfully, painfully bright. And having to adjust to that brightness.
Another good one: a really loud, painful sound that's so loud I can't hear it but it's affecting me.
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Chakra work sounds good. Wonder what sorts of exercises would be best for this....
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I'd go with the advice from ysabetwordsmith; it sounds on the same track I'd suggest, but much more experienced.
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So, it sounds like you're QUITE due.
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And my last major awakening... and it was seriously mindblowing... was last year. That was when various events started which made me realize my True Will.
Hoo boy. I'm fucked.
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