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[starryeyed_cass]

I was both kidnapped and tortured and then a month later, nearly murdered within the first few months that I came here.

I don't get upset over what happened any more, but

Sometimes I still get angry about it. Very angry.

I just try not to let it show to everyone, because I don't like being angry in such a deep way. It's not an emotion

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[starryeyed_cass]

[Stares. Forever.

Oh god, what did I just write?]

[uponthewires]

[Anne's going to have a very similar reaction to Cassie.

She can't imagine something so horrible, and she doesn't have the words to properly express her horror and her sadness, that something like that could be done to someone as sweet as her friend.

So she will be hunting Cassie down so there can be all the hugging. ;;]

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[smithnjones]

I understand you didn't mean to post this. However, I have been there myself.

I have felt the anger, the helplessness, the constant revisiting of the memories of what occurred.

This is simply an open invitation to talk to me personally if you'd ever like. I have been there too. I was kidnapped and tortured to death.

There are ways you can work on your anger so it doesn't overcome you. Someone very wise showed me this years ago, and I would want to do this for you.

I am so incredibly sorry for what you went through. I'm angered on your behalf, and I'm so disgusted that someone would do this to you. I want to track them down and make certain they receive justice if

It's important to talk about it, and I'm here for anything that you need and if you'd want to describe it in further detail or know about how I have dealt with what happened to me, what worked and what didn't.

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[starryeyed_cass]

[Cassie takes a while to reply to this. She has gone to hug Anne forever. ;; And then she is just... all the emotions and no words for a while.]

It's not often I revisit the things that happened. I think I'm doing well, dealing with it sometimes. I haven't done anything bad since the blackout I caused last year.

But it's just... now and then when I'm by myself and I start thinking about things.

[She sighs and stops writing for a few moments.]

It was... all very complicated.

Thank you, Ms. Jones. I appreciate that so much and will always keep that in mind. I would really like come and talk to you at some point.

And I'm very sorry it happened to you too.

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[smithnjones]

[DAW CASSIE. Martha doesn't expect an immediate response. She understands.]

I think that is perfectly understandable. What was done to you is something that will always stay with you. To pretend otherwise, it's not helping you.

I know.

You're welcome, and we can talk at any times. I would really like that too.

We can both be sorry. It shouldn't have happened to either of us.

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[starryeyed_cass]

Sometimes I wish I could pretend. It would make things so much easier. But no, you're right. It won't help me.

Again, thank you.

No, it shouldn't of. No one deserves it.

[pplrunincircles]

I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry that happened to you.

I love you. You're a wonderful person. It never should've, and I'm sorry.

[starryeyed_cass]

[Cassie is going to fill up again. She wants to say thank you, but it doesn't seem right. ;;

So instead, she will simply say:]

I love you too, Elizabeth.

[pplrunincircles]

[DAW CASSIE ;;]

If you need anything

let me know

[starryeyed_cass]

I will. Promise.

[imwotchingyou]

Cass, that's just awful. :(

Are you alright?

[starryeyed_cass]

I'm just sad I've worried everyone.

I didn't want to write all that.

[imwotchingyou]

Everyone's been writing things they don't mean. Have you seen some of the things? I may vomit at one in particular.

[starryeyed_cass]

I just saw now.

This is just awful.

Oh my... handcuffs?