im eating coffee haagen dazs ice cream, and having a crappy night. I went on these interviews, I got them both. But quite frankly. These jobs both suck. So. Yea. Then Greg didnt return my calls and i couldnt go anywhere because i was worried that something was wrong, and i wanted hm to e able to reach me when he did get to a phone. Turns out he ( Read more... )

ive been fired this week. amd surprisingly im pretrty calm. I've been trying to do calming things, now that I have more free time. I sleep more, I am more relaxed, and I can do positive things for my self. today after greg came over I watched a movie, bought a new sketch book! and bought a really good falafel. IT was really good, adm fresh. Yummy. ( Read more... )

SO today is the first day at my new apartment. My roomates are really cool. Last night they welcomed me and greg in. They made our bed and bought us beer and crap. It was alot of fun. They threw a party for one of the guys who is moving out today. Hes really funny. They really welcomed us here. I have good feelings about it. I gotta unpack and ( Read more... )

so..........im alive .... lol.. i miss u shari and sarah so much muah ( Read more... )

Alot of new things have happened. Alot. I've learned alot. Been hurt alot. Felt new felings. Met new people. And sometimes I get so caught up in looking back that I walk the wrong way, and get soo lost. Im talking about the whole anna and me thing. We're officially done and I'm getting her out my system. this means the gifts she gave me. I'm over ( Read more... )

im in the library for the first time i na long time. So many things, i cant even pic k out a emotion, or mood or thought. But I know i am leaving tomm and goin back "home" which means ,some one elses house. Where I'll have to starve. Jesus. I dont even have $$$ to go to my appts later. Shit. Anyhow I have had some time to think of the ppl in my ( Read more... )

i met up with my mentor today for lunch. I had a warm meal. I sound homeless dont i. Anyhow I had a short trip to the hosp this sunday.
more later...

i could loose like 60 lbs..
then id be happy........

screw the blood test...and the doctor
starve it is!! whooooooooooooo

i had two meals today for the first time in such a long time...

applause anyone??

im watching the mask....
hmph........

today i was sedated...soo sedated i was falling asleep ..and everyone noticed... i guess thats what 600mg neurontin does. anyhow... all im sharing...