but remember what's right for me might be not right for you
new one tree hill tonight. brooke thought she was pregnant. everyone was a wreck about it. but then she found out it was just a scare.
i know that's just a show, but it's things like that that make me really glad that i still have my virginity. someone asked me last weekend why i hadn't lost it yet. the truth is, i would be so incredibly paranoid. i don't know what i would do if i ever found myself pregnant. i'm just not ready for something like that. it just seems so dumb to throw your life away for a few moments of fun. i know you could say, well there's always condoms and birth control and blah blah blah. but those aren't always 100% correct. what about that tiny percentage of error? with my luck i would be the one person that it gets by. i don't understand how so many of my friends at our age can just do it and not think abything of it. it's a big big deal to me, and i can't just throw it away for a moment. i mean, there are plenty of other things you can do without going all the way. i know there has been QUITE A FEW abortions and shit like that go down at sta and i just don't see the point. i don't know... sex is just a big thing to me. we were talking about it after school today. it doesn't seem to be as big a deal to guys as it does to girls. maybe because boys can't get pregnant. who knows. all i know is i am glad i haven't decided to lose it yet.
one of lucas' lines in the show tonight was, "Look past the moment. If you're not ready, then wait."
i can't agree more. that is exactly how i feel on this, and you can have sex or not have sex, i really don't care and i on't think it makes you a better or worse person. that is just how i feel about it and what it means to me. have sex. get pregnant. have 10 babies or 10 abortions. do what makes you happy. just don't have any regrets.
so late start tomorrow. extra sleep? i think so.