10 firsts ( Read more... )

Ok so this weekend was by far the hardest weekend that i had to go through everyday i thought that it would get better and that I would be ok...boy was I wrong cryed from thursday night till about 2 hours ago...carissa told me on sat that if i cried she would shave her head...well i cried but she didnt shave her head. Lol I have the best friends in ( Read more... )

i need a hug :( badely do not want to go to school or rehersal this week I need a hug

So i havent updated in a while...havent been in the mood latley. I started to get depressed real bad and its over whelming like i cry myself to sleep some nights and i dont know why...im actually starting to cry now actually. I feel like my insides are getting ripped from me and i cant stop it. Im tired over worked and all i want to do is cry and ( Read more... )

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my face or what im wearing ( Read more... )

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY WHOOO HOOOO WHO HOOOO WHOOOO HOOOO!!! I'M 19 IM DANCING YAY WHOOOOOOO HAPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!! im not excited at all WHOOOOOOOOO lol

Ok so lets see where do i start...Oh yes when I got Ians tonight I saw a girl named Sue who I worked with at CEC a long time ago it was nice seeing her again I missed her. Ate a hamburger and talked with Carissa who I hadnt seen in a long time it was overdue. Then we were all hanging out and Mark sang me his version of Happy Birthday BECAUSE MY ( Read more... )

So today was alright I worked all day from the am to the pm...last night got a lil typsy but i needed it soooo bad. I just get so irritated ahhhh!!!! Its like yea were co existing and shit but Im done you asked me to stay out of your life and I want to Im not your friend nor will I ever be so do me a favor and dont talk to me, I cant handle u ( Read more... )

So today was a great day starting out then it got bad and then it got better. I think its safe to say what happened today was a good thing. I cried for a long time and I think Me and Ian are gonna be ok. We had to work a few things out and I think in given time it will be faboulous again. I love him so much and I have been feeling distant from him ( Read more... )

So I have about a half hour before I have stage make-up. Im really not liking this cant wear makeup thing I understand why we cant I just dont like it. It doesnt make me feel girly at all. Oh well. Im sitting in the computer lab right now and Im bored so I decided to update. Lets see Ian is coming to school in a little bit to drop some things off ( Read more... )