I'm at home, feeling like CRAP right now instead of being at school. It's very rare that I actually don't go to school, even if I am sick. I really hate feeling like this. I have no idea what's wrong with me. I think I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. Anywho, yea ( Read more... )

"I hate these sick feeling inside myself that I feel. I hate that you dont even care anymore. I hate having to ignore you... I hate that I cant look at you. some things you cant erase, no matter how hard you try..."I couldn't have said it better myself ( Read more... )

So I didn't really get an soul-searching done during the trip to MS, but I guess I'm content with where I am right now. That's good enough, for now. Ever since I got that book, things seem to make more sense, things seem easier, and I'm able to focus more. I know how to act, react, and feel. Sometimes it's easier said than done, but it's nice to ( Read more... )

jarred: wanna mate?
jarred: hahaha
started with yoU: uhm negative!! HAHAHAHA
started with yoU: lol
jarred: man
jarred: :'(
jarred: id make u feel goood
jarred: lololol
started with yoU: oh yea my boyfriend would make u feel bad
started with yoU: o snap! u feel playeddd

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I'm off to Mississippi this morning, a lovely 8 hours away from this mess.

Things happen for a reason.

Keep it real, and don't start shit.
I'll be back.

It's really hard to be friendly and optimistic towards people who ( Read more... )

don't take anything for granted.

so im getting aileen's car on sunday. =)

Freakin physics test tomorrow. i better pass this mug.

-AND- a realization. a bad one.
I thought everything was fine, but when I really look deep into the situation, into her, I know it's not.
& there's nothing I can do about it.