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ok so I'v very irritable right now..and I'v gained like 5 lbs this week..I'm thinking its pms. Came home and my mom woke up so I attempted to make small talk and "bond" about lacrosse..nope you know she she did she stood on her tippy toes to see the tv and said shhh..wtf fine no more, I give up.
way to go..you fucked up again, surprise surprise!!Do you like being a fat ass??Do you like going to bed bloated and with you stomach looking like a balloon???Apparently you fat selfish underserving cow. You gave in..again and again. Do you want this or not??You will lose this wait, you will be thin. You don't need fucking food, what is going through your shit hole of a mind???Aw I'm sorry is this too hard..do you give up..its not fair huh??Too fucking bad!!Its too late you gained that wait now you're gonna lost it. Tonight after that haircut you're gonna workout for an hour. You're not gonna get any food. Atleast you did something right and didn't have that yogurt for lunch..don't think I'm congratulating you or something. You have a lot of making up to do for those binges. This weekend you'll fast as much as possible and you'll workout all day. Why can't you do this???Dont you want to be perfect for matt..don't you want people to think wow..and envy you..do you want to blind everyone when summer comes and your fat nasty body is shown in that bathing suit. DON'T even think about eating..eating won't make anything better except after you eat you'll feel even worse. Stick with the plan..you don't deserve food. You don't even have the power to resist it..coward..you're so weak!!Too much for you?too fucking bad once again you're going to do this. And you'll thank me later. Yeah aw is your side hurting??It's cause of those binges now you fucked up for stomach and you gotta shit. Get it out of you now..get rid of everything in your system. Those jeans WILL get looser and looser and those bones will protrude soo much more. MORE sit ups MORE leg lifts..it WAS working there wasn't it??Yeah you saw it working but nope you stepped down you gave in you worthless piece of shit. Way to fucking go. Don't mess this up again..last chance..