Y'know, I generally try not to use my journal to bitch, but something has been bothering me of late:
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Not selfishness in general, as there is no escaping it, but specifically selfishness on the Internet. I belong to a few "social networking" sites, as most everyone seems to these days. The idea is, in my opinion, to have the ability to reach out and connect with others, and the ease to do it frequently. I'm not the best at keeping in touch, I'll admit, and there are definitely times when I just distance myself entirely. I'm willing to bet everyone feels the same at one time or another.
Still, I do try. I read journals, and where I have something to say, I comment. Since I'm not keeping up with any fandoms at present, I've quit reading fanfiction (unless I'm asked to beta read, which I still do gladly), so I tend to gloss over that on my f'lists (though I did make a promise to a certain Madame Librarian out there that once I've caught up on season two of Glee, I'll be reading her latest!). I've definitely fallen off the roleplay train of late and I no longer belong to any communities, but I miss it, so sometimes I try to pick up threads here and there. In fact, I did so the other day when I saw someone on my f'list asking for someone to help out and tag into a thread. Have a received a return post? Hell no. I don't even know why I'm even surprised.
It seems to me that most people I try to connect with on these sites are not interested in me unless I'm giving them something or doing something for them. I get so fed up with the LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME behavior that is so prevalent on LJ and elsewhere, I'm just going to give up entirely and revert my journal back to what it was originally intended for - a place to record thoughts and feelings, to store pictures and memories, and a log of all the things no one else cares about, save me. That said, if I think you're making an effort to stay in touch, I'll continue to do the same for you. As for everyone else? Well, it's been real.