It rained for the first time this year yesterday.
I noticed as the doctor was telling me it was time to just let my dad "die with dignity"
Sometimes you just have to give up. Some times you just have to let go
It was also the first time I'd cried this year.
Vita Pulchra Est
I just have to remember that

Dad,
I know your leaving soon. I know you stayed as long as you could, and with every fighting day I saw you face the reality of what is happening to you. The reality of the fact that no matter how hard mom, Rachel, the doctors, nurses and I all try... no one can save you. And I never, ever saw you cry. Not yester year, not today and never in the ( Read more... )

Has the world gone nuts?!? I guess down in tinsel town,bat shit crazy is the new pink

Dont get me wrong. Its not like I dont have a life, my life is just sad and depressing right now, when they're lives are...well...sad to I guess, but sad in a haha kinda way. you'll see what I mean when your see annas face and brittanys head

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Well, last night was the drunken Olympics between me, Keeley, Andy Besho, Rachel and Brandon. We started with the thirty beer chug, followed with the coconut rum. Then A hack-a-thon and Foosball tournament. Next Rachel got the gold in the both the five foot fall and the toilet plunge. She was standing on the sink looking at herself in the mirror ( Read more... )

The sun had almost set in the distance, white rays reaching out with a final burst against a sky of pink and purple clouds. The last of the light faded from the majestic mountains before her. It was in that instant second an inspiring thought bombarded her mind with what felt almost as a physical force, as if she had been jerked. Life is so ( Read more... )

I am soooooo fucking sick of people, and its pretty much every one. Well, not every one. Just Jerett, the kid who apparently watches me sleep, makes fucking nauseating sexual comments on a regular basis and wont...stop...CALLING...ME! Or maybe its hunter who pushed me over the edge, also suddenly notorious for randomly sending me vulgar text ( Read more... )

Hes gone now ( Read more... )

You Are More Yin
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Had a shitty, shitty, SHITTY day. had a shitty christmas. Spent Christmas eve and morning in a small truck with four other people at a truck stop somewhere between Saint Louis (where I am now) and Denver. Went to the corner bar last night and drank to much and that wouldn't have been so bad if I had gotten the chance to sleep off the hangover, but ( Read more... )

Was 2006 a good year for you?: Kinda
What was your favorite moment of the year?:  Just being with my family
What was your least favorite moment of the year?: All the hardships with my dad
Where were you when 2006 began?: Drunk as hell at my place
Who were you with?: My friends and family
Where will you be when 2006 ends?: hopefully back home with my ( Read more... )