love myself brutally

[starxwhore]

my world is crumbling right before my eyes.i have already fallen apart. im shattered into a thousand pieces.im really screaming out for help but only i can hear the oh so deafening cries of my soul. when the buzz dies down and the high fades away im left with nothing but my empty self. the irony in it all is that although i realize this it comes to

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[gutterbloom]

i love you
i hate to see you like this.
i'm here ok? take care<3

[_rocketqueen]

eve, I need you. I need to talk to you. To see you. to hear you. Im so broke. so much more broke than I ever been. I've never felt this low in my life.

[_rocketqueen]

eve, where are you. I need you so much. I can't do this anymore. I dont wanna live. Tom & i got into a huge physical fight. I tryed to talk to him and i tryed to pull him into the bedroom to talk to him but it didn't work & i didn't mean it. i went out there & we got into a fight. he threw a beer bottle at me. then we got into a fight. throwing punches and everything. eve i dont wanna live here anymore. i sick of feeling this way. no one cares about me. i have no one. i have nothing. my parents dont care. katie will be leaving me. i hate this. i hate this. i wanna die.

[_rocketqueen]

eve, i want out of here. i want out of new york now. i can't take it anymore. it's killing me. i can't eat, i can't sleep. my chest feels like it's caving in. he wont talk to me. he wont understand. i should have never fucked up w/ you. i wish you were here. i want you to come here. i'll send you money to get you here. anything. i can't do this on my own.

[_rocketqueen]

i forgot the #.. 5852257144. i dont have a phone card atm. but imma get one asap. i need to get away from all this bullshit, or i need someone here. i can't take it. i cant.