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Umm... So where do I start?!?! How about the message Im listening to. Sounds good. Or how I got my Varsity spot.
Thursday 1/27 @ Monroe. Wrestling match. I will be the 119lb. varsity wrestler.
So much to say. How about this...
WRESTLING
I got there at like 5:30 this morning. SO FUCKING EARLY. I wrestled Damean and got my spot. So, tomorrow I will be wrestling FOR SURE. um... that is about it.
Life
I have realized so much in the past two days. Justin said he didn't want to be my friend but then today acted like nothing happened. Cameron just left me a message about Justin. Justin sent me mean text messages earlier. I know I shouldn't feel bad but im dieing inside. I couldn't even be that happy about getting my varsity spot back bc I was too worried about how Justin was. I hate it. The thing that pisses me off the most is I stayed by his side for 2 years while he left me for about 4 other girls, cheated on me, lied to me, wouldn't admit to ANYONE that he would kiss me when we were alone and now because we broke up not bc i cheated or lied or wanted someone else and he wont be by my side. Thank you best friend. I do love him.
I realized while talking to one of my good friends that I can't have what I want bc it will just lead to bad things. I can't persue it anymore because it will just end up a horrible mess. Im always saying my friends mean the most to me. My friends over eveything (besides family). Ok, so... friendship right?!!?
ehhhh...i dont know. I think people might be right about me being bipolar....