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[starybarbie03]

I've been pondering my thoughts with "what if" 's lately. Mostly about my grandpa. I wish I would have known him better and I wish he wouldn't have been in jail. I always wonder if I'd be closer with him if I had known him better. I remember so little of him, it drives me crazy. I wonder if we'd have gone camping like most families, or if we'd have

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[starybarbie03]

<3 I like that you enjoy reading my posts.
Thank you so much.
xox
Amber

[forgive_forget]

i'm a what-if kinda girl too.

i think about dying and who would care all the time. what would people think? who would miss me? what kind of trash would people make up about me when i was gone? would my friends move on? is there really another place for me to go to? its cool reading that someone else thinks the same thing <3

[starybarbie03]

I love that someone else shares my thoughts.
A lot of the time, I think I'm going to die soon.
I guess it's just an excuse to do all the crazy things I do.
We only live once.
And then it's over.
And I wonder what it'll be like when it's over.
Is it like sleeping?
You dont even feel that you're anything at all?
It's so strange to think about.
<3

[forgive_forget]

its so wild to really think about death. i hope that there is some place for me to go - whether it be reincarnation, heaven, or hell, which wouldn't surprise me for all the stupid stuff i do. but if there isn't - then what is there? you don't have a life. everything is black and dark, and your dead body is just underground or your ashes scattered. it sounds so stupid - but you don't have a life. you know what i mean? like - you don't have a soul, a mind, or a living body. you're dead and have no idea what is going on in the world. death is some scary shit.

[endofthestory]

i never knew my grandparents on my moms side. they both died of cancer before i was born.
sometimes i wonder if my mom gets sad about that.
adults have this way of hiding things:/<3

[starybarbie03]

I know what you mean.
And I'm sorry you never met them.
I know it hurts my dad that his father is gone.
But sometimes I think they've learned to accept it.
Other times I think that they hide it so they dont seem as weakk.
<3

[endofthestory]

hmm yeah, but then what will happen when we grow up and our parents die? it seems so far off but it's coming...
<3

[jennitalia]

hi, let's go play in the rain together =]

love,
jenn

[starybarbie03]

Hi, I defnitally agree.
Love,
Amber