after 4 months of no running. my car is now back on the road in perfect working order.

i dont think ive been this happy in months

"i dont look at myself in the mirror cause im a narcissist
i simply like to watch myself exist"

i havent made one of the "how is ian doing" updates in a while. this is comething that occured to me last night at 1 AM as i was watching a movie called On_Line. the movie is about a video chat website that people use. the creator and owner uses it as ( Read more... )

i didnt do the original work, but i repainted the frame, cut the matting, then mounted it. its currently hanging up in my room over my blackout curtains in front of my window box. makes me happy


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what do you do when you miss someone you lost?
what do you do when you miss someone who got away?
what do you do when you miss someone who you never had?

you end up being awake at almost 2 AM looking at pictures, remembering wasted time and waiting for your eyes to shut.

....all I ever wanted, was a warm bed....and house that wasn't haunted

pumpkin pie reminds me of my grandmother. she would always make me my own pie for thanksgiving, one just for me to have because i loved her pie so much. there were even times when it was my birthday and i got a pumpkin pie. on everyone's birthday my grandmother would make them whatever cake or pie you wanted. and despite the fact that it was the ( Read more... )

ignorance breeds ignorance

so ive noticed a few things about college girls in my years at drexel thus far ( Read more... )

i feel like im leonard shelby. trying to hold on to my fragmented memories. holding pictures that say, dont trust his lies. trying so hard to make sense of the world im in, and constantly finding myself moving without any direction or proof that ive even lived the life i thought i did ( Read more... )

so im at coheed last night, and at one point before blood brothers this kid behind me yells "ian!" i turn around and hes looking over to my right in the distance and this other kid comes pushing up to his right. hes tall, possibly 6'2," broad shoulders, thin, brown eyes, small dark brown/black mohawk. so yea... a little weird

"im pretty sure thats the only person ian would cower from"

scary is realizing your heading toward down the same road youve already been down. whats worse is realizing that its the EXACT same road, only this time it could be so much worse