Comments | staticdynamo: If the abyss stares back, why can't heaven return a smile?

staticdynamo

If the abyss stares back, why can't heaven return a smile?

Jan 07, 2005 06:19

I’ve attempted to sleep, but it would appear that even masturbation has no power over the things running around in my head. I’m somewhat in a state of confusion, considering how the typical drive for insomnia as a state of unwellness and well, I’m actually quite peaceful. All the questions that I can answer right now are answered, and all those ( Read more... )

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philsov January 7 2005, 20:54:16 UTC

Connection is wonderful ^_^

But in response to the last line... I think the fear is the lack of an understanding ear more than anything else. Sure, there's the power aspect about knowing more about yourself than others, but one of my biggest fears is to completely open myself up and, not necessarily be rejected, but rather be either misunderstood or have whomever I open up to have no clue what I'm talking about.

Sure, it'll never get better unless I do try and actually open up, but this isn't something I'm able to dive headfirst into.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/philsov/32012.html

You've read the entry prior to this one... staticdynamo January 8 2005, 10:45:14 UTC

Immediacey is not required, only the acknowledgement of potentiality.

unitsinc January 11 2005, 03:40:52 UTC

I understand pretty much everything you've told me, you know you can open up.

And I know that you do open up to me, probably more than you do to most other people, and I know that the opening up process takes time and is hard.

Even for me, as much of an open book as I am, there are things that I don't like to talk about because I don't think anyone will understand.

I'm on the phone right now, and I've lost my train of thought so I'm gonna stop.

I also want the internet back cuz I miss my regular doses of Phil.

Suffice to say that I love you Phil and open up to me whenever you'd like....in bed.

unitsinc January 11 2005, 04:10:40 UTC

I would say that we got quite a bit closer.

It was quite nice actually.

Heh, the personal fable...I've never heard it called that, but I can totally relate to it.

I like talking to you.

Since I met you I could tell that I would be able to get along and have very nice discussions with you, which we've had a few, just none so long or in depth as the last one.

Well, anyway.

You're gay.

And if I were, I'd pee in your butt.