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[stavelym]

I'm so F*ing tired of this depression bullshit. I can see why people do stupid things. Right now, all my brain wants to know is, "what can I do to feel good?" Forget consequences, forget good judgement- I just want to do whatever it takes to make it go away. Get trashed? Fine. Call guys that are no good? Fine. Put on trashy clothes and go

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[lady_tamuril]

i'm sorry i keep canceling! I didn't realize that i had *2* meets in a row...

I'll be there next week, i promise!

[stavelym]

That's ok- it's not just you. It's that _everyone_ keeps cancelling. One student wouldn't matter if I had other showing up. Don't feel bad!
-m.

[mlle_cynique]

Boys are dumb. I'll kick one for you (one in particular, that is). You're gonna have to kick the other one yourself, though. My legs aren't quite that long. ;)

It'll all work out in the end, I promise.
~Jewel

[stavelym]

Haha- thanks. I'm going to email the one and see what's up. I'm not too worried about it, just wondering what the deal is (if there is one). I can kick the other, if need be. : )
-m.

[flyinhome]

practical advice for feeling better: eat well. every day, every meal. if you need to eat frequently, do that too. skimping on meals or eating an unbalanced diet will impair your judgment and make you less emotionally stable.

it won't solve the guy problems but it will help you be less likely to depend on guys who aren't dependable. which, basically, is all you can do, right? I mean, you can't change other people, but you can change what you expect of them and how you deal with them.

you have friends who love you and who want to be supportive. let them. don't deny yourself things that you need.

[stavelym]

Aww, thanks, yo. The meal thing is really tough right now, for a number of reasons. I feel much better- that sort of spell is unusual even for my mood swings. ; ) The good thing is that even when I'm feeling lousy, I can objectively recognize the difference between "I feel" and "I am"- ie, "I feel like no one loves me(even though they do)" versus "I am unloved."
Mmm foooood... ; )
-m.