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Dear Diary..
Thanks for ditching me on New Year's Eve, I guess you forgot you invited me to Dan's oh well I'll stay here with my friends, okay yeah bye.
I left Crystal that on myspace because she's suppose to be my best friend. It sucks, oh well I'm sick of people making plans and not following through or acting like oh Michelle you forgot about your plans with me all because I don't want to be the one always calling everyone, hell the phone works two ways people. Sick of it all, seriously.
I'm starting this year over: my resolutions are to continue getting good grades, talking to my real friends, having fun, searching for mister right and going to the gym- I can keep all of those, the one I don't know if I'll be able to keep is speaking up to people, anyone... I'm trying and that's why I'm being so bluntly probably meanish rude in that comment above, I'm not a door mat so stop walking all of me, all of you that suck, btw Marissa/Barry I know you invited me tonight but it's so snowy I don't think I'll make it to the hotel party in Meridan, live it up and have some shots for me, I'm gonna stick inside where it's warm and drink with my mom, be stupid and eat little weiners, ha.
This year sucked, so why should the ending be any different? The weather is cool out though it's snowing and I love the snow and... I am just happy that it's a fresh year as Tranq left me a message on myspace hopefully this one will be better. With my new found friends, my new attitude on the world and myself and just me being me.. I have a feeling it'll be an interesting one, can't wait to live up 2oo6.
Happy New Year to all of you.
Hope it's happy, healthy and safe.
Goodbye 2oo5 to the old me, the girl who wouldn't talk for herself, the shy side, the one who obbessed over a guy who I guess never loved me as much as I loved him, the horror of thinking I lost my cousin, thank God he is okay but that whole accident is left behind, the deaths of everyone, a lot of people I know lost close people to them this year, Rest In Peace, the death of my Poppy will never be put in the past, but remembered as a regret for 2oo5--- but a new start for the rest of my life and cherishing the time I have with people, goodbye to the year that took my heart and crushed it, took away my grandfather and attemped to do to the same to my cousin... hello to 2oo6 which gives me a new start on going to the gym constantly like I have been, making new friends or keeping the true friendships I got, re-stablizing my heart so that I can move on and make mature decisions in relationships, the new year that will give me a new raise at work, 30 cents more is 30 cents more, the new year that I'll hopefully find what I want to do with my life and transfer to a different university, maybe save some money up and take that trip to Montreal.. I feel good about 2oo6, usually I'm cynical on New Year's eve because I hate the new year, I always get hurt emotionally or physically, but this year I'm growing up and I realize it's a celebration of the past year, it doesn't have to be a huge party, just a new beginning for everyone...
Thanks for ditching me on New Year's Eve, I guess you forgot you invited me to Dan's oh well I'll stay here with my friends, okay yeah bye.
I left Crystal that on myspace because she's suppose to be my best friend. It sucks, oh well I'm sick of people making plans and not following through or acting like oh Michelle you forgot about your plans with me all because I don't want to be the one always calling everyone, hell the phone works two ways people. Sick of it all, seriously.
I'm starting this year over: my resolutions are to continue getting good grades, talking to my real friends, having fun, searching for mister right and going to the gym- I can keep all of those, the one I don't know if I'll be able to keep is speaking up to people, anyone... I'm trying and that's why I'm being so bluntly probably meanish rude in that comment above, I'm not a door mat so stop walking all of me, all of you that suck, btw Marissa/Barry I know you invited me tonight but it's so snowy I don't think I'll make it to the hotel party in Meridan, live it up and have some shots for me, I'm gonna stick inside where it's warm and drink with my mom, be stupid and eat little weiners, ha.
This year sucked, so why should the ending be any different? The weather is cool out though it's snowing and I love the snow and... I am just happy that it's a fresh year as Tranq left me a message on myspace hopefully this one will be better. With my new found friends, my new attitude on the world and myself and just me being me.. I have a feeling it'll be an interesting one, can't wait to live up 2oo6.
Happy New Year to all of you.
Hope it's happy, healthy and safe.
Goodbye 2oo5 to the old me, the girl who wouldn't talk for herself, the shy side, the one who obbessed over a guy who I guess never loved me as much as I loved him, the horror of thinking I lost my cousin, thank God he is okay but that whole accident is left behind, the deaths of everyone, a lot of people I know lost close people to them this year, Rest In Peace, the death of my Poppy will never be put in the past, but remembered as a regret for 2oo5--- but a new start for the rest of my life and cherishing the time I have with people, goodbye to the year that took my heart and crushed it, took away my grandfather and attemped to do to the same to my cousin... hello to 2oo6 which gives me a new start on going to the gym constantly like I have been, making new friends or keeping the true friendships I got, re-stablizing my heart so that I can move on and make mature decisions in relationships, the new year that will give me a new raise at work, 30 cents more is 30 cents more, the new year that I'll hopefully find what I want to do with my life and transfer to a different university, maybe save some money up and take that trip to Montreal.. I feel good about 2oo6, usually I'm cynical on New Year's eve because I hate the new year, I always get hurt emotionally or physically, but this year I'm growing up and I realize it's a celebration of the past year, it doesn't have to be a huge party, just a new beginning for everyone...