when, six months after the fact, i confessed to neil that i had cheated on him. i used to be a drunk and a slut and a compulsive liar. since then, i haven't told a single lie or done anything i'm ashamed of. it was the hardest thing i've ever done, and he never looked at me the same again after he knew. it completely ruined our relationship, but it was the right thing to do, and it was worth it, for me. i see that as the single point that separates who i was then from who i am now.
i don't even think i can do it justice. him, our friendship, the bazillions of people i've met because of him, how they've changed me, how i have changed them, most are still good friends, the new ideas, the old ones...
josh in particular was the only person i'd ever known who i was connected at the hip to, and it was an entirely platonic friendship. we were like weird brother and sister, even though i don't even talk to him anymore or know any of the new people who are important in his life.
he was the start of a chain reaction. and here i am.
hi. I was looking through old madradhairness and I found a post I had made which can be found here your comment in particular, made me smile.. so I looked at your journal. and I saw this, and thought it was quite fitting, actually.
not one moment in particular, but when everything started changing, was when I got my dreads. I had no control over how my hair looked and I knew that it would take years for them to tighten up and look good. So, I stopped fussing about my hair. I realized that I, as well as many people, are too caught up with crazy things... and I just let everything go. I just completely calmed down inside, and for the first time, in a long time, I could worry about things that relatively mattered.
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i see that as the single point that separates who i was then from who i am now.
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i don't even think i can do it justice. him, our friendship, the bazillions of people i've met because of him, how they've changed me, how i have changed them, most are still good friends, the new ideas, the old ones...
josh in particular was the only person i'd ever known who i was connected at the hip to, and it was an entirely platonic friendship. we were like weird brother and sister, even though i don't even talk to him anymore or know any of the new people who are important in his life.
he was the start of a chain reaction. and here i am.
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the second one made me so proud and sad and just sigh.
i'm glad it doesn't matter.
and i love you and miss you.
can't wait to see you!
-k
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I was looking through old madradhairness
and I found a post I had made
which can be found here
your comment in particular, made me smile.. so I looked at your journal.
and I saw this, and thought it was quite fitting, actually.
not one moment in particular, but when everything started changing, was when I got my dreads. I had no control over how my hair looked and I knew that it would take years for them to tighten up and look good. So, I stopped fussing about my hair. I realized that I, as well as many people, are too caught up with crazy things... and I just let everything go. I just completely calmed down inside, and for the first time, in a long time, I could worry about things that relatively mattered.
That's pretty much my turning point.
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i'm so glad you took a peek.
friends?
-kate
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