Im Hated by all, loved by none, and A serious outcast. I have friends, sure, theyre great to me, except for a few.... I wish other people well, and i cant accept compliments ( i dont know how) i give alot, receive little, and im okay with that. People say i live like a "King" or some other royal figure, but im just as normal as the rest of you. I ask little and give alot. Thats the kind of person i am. People accept me as a person (sometimes). Ill give my life to save any one of my friends or acquaintences. I dont fear seath, only pain. I dont get depressed, or sad, i get angry or get short with people, i can never stay mad at someone for longer than a few hours. Im sorry to those who feel obsolete by my presence, or just unimportant of something like that (which i hope no-one feels that way) And i wish everyone a happy life.
i love a girl i have had sex i want to drink my problems away im a hypocrite i hate a few people i love to much when i was little i thought that a vagina was a teddy bear i am not judgemental i like to be held i want to hold someone in the bath tub naked i have taken a shower with the one i love i want to kiss her all the time i want to kiss her neck i want to kiss her lips i want her to feel how much i love her not hear it feel it sex is uncomfortable i want to let go i have loved only one other girl in my life i collect postcards and quarters and bits of glass i have not found god i love kissing like an 'eskimo' i dont even know you i looked at a friends journal and clicked friends and here you were
dear strangers,
anonymous
December 1 2004, 13:58:49 UTC
well i dont even know where to start. ive never done one of these anonymous posts, but i figured this is the only way im ever going to get all this out of my system
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this is an amazing concept
anonymous
December 2 2004, 15:36:09 UTC
I hate Pennsylvania. I hate Illinois because it's supposed to feel like home, and it doesn't. I hate school. I hate this jail cell of a dorm room. I hate my roommate. I hate myself more than all of those things. I lie uncontrolably, even when I don't want to. I hate sympathy, but I go out of my way to get it. I smoke a pack a day to calm nerves that seem absolutely uncalmable. I'm a lesbian and I feel smothered by my sexuality. I'm honestly affraid of people, not just shy.....genuinely affraid. I am outgoing on the inside to please my parents. I lead clubs and take initiative in spite of my fear and the wish that I could just disappear. I wish I could find the guts to come out, but I don't have any because I am hollow on the inside. I'm in love with a person I have no business loving, so I sit aside like a silent ghost watching while she loves boy after boy, only to find herself broken in the end. Watching her be with other people fills me with a pain that no words could describe, and still I do nothing. I don't even
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