This weekend will mark the fifth December Army drill where my "Plus One" for the family dinner is worthless.

Sundays too my father got up early 
and put his clothes on in the blueblack cold,
then with cracked hands that ached
from labor in the weekday weather made
banked fires blaze. No one ever thanked him.

I'd wake and hear the cold splintering, breaking ( Read more... )

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If you were exchanged in the cradle and
your real mother died
without ever telling the story
then no one knows your name,
and somewhere in the world
your father is lost and needs you
but you are far away.

He can never find
how true you are, how ready.
When the great wind comes
and the robberies of the rain
you stand on the corner shivering.
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Dream began in a little store with assorted bric-a-brac.  The kind you in which you find Asian trinkets, such as giant jade-colored plastic dragons that look hand-carved but clearly came out of a mold, prints of hand-written art, and other manufactured relics.  I don't know what brought my sister, her boyfriend and my little tour group there.  I ( Read more... )

[21:21] ---------------------: mayn you are so behind ( Read more... )

I can't give all the things I want to try a chance.  Even after this bullshit.  My fear of death has been so alive for a time yet I let it devour me not impeding its crawl into every nook and cranny of my psyche.  Always forget it's there.  Then I tried to sleep two nights ago, waking up to invisible monsters.  Body lagging behind like it no longer ( Read more... )

"If awkward was bottled, Nam would be in it" - Gunnar

NAMASTERISK: i hadn't complimented a girl in a long time, until a couple nights ago.  i said, i'm at this bar because of you.  and she just kinda rolled her eyes.  maybe i was kidding, maybe i just want to drink.

Must've said this months ago in an AIM conversation.  Found this in a
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On the other-side of the window ( Read more... )