Moving might be best. Sometimes I really hate not living in the A but living so far away forces me to get school work done...most of the time. I feel really bad about the other night. My ride left early and me being wasted gave them the okay to leave...me, without a ride was lucky to run into you. I have a lot of issues on my mind that I wish I could talk to you about..mostly relating to how to deal with some things. I'd like it if you'd give me a call 770.324.5622, but seeing as how i'm not worth any man giving me a call lately (or hardly a text message), I might just correspond with you through lj.
I dunno... Something about watching my best friend drunkenly fuck the guy I've had a crush on since I was 16 repeatedly in bed next to me really just rubbed me in the worst kind of way.
I just now read this...and all I can say is i'm sorry. I'm sorry i'm a drunk. I drink too much and I fuck shit up. But you know what the funny thing is? I drink because it's the only way I can get off while someone I don't even know fucks me. Because i've practically gave up on trying to have a boyfriend. Patrick fucked me over x2. And since that evening in question i've been trying to get back to knowing you and who you are. Stephen i've always wanted you... unfortunately it seems when one of us is coming around to the idea of something greater than casual sex the other one isn't interested or it's not convenient. I'm sorry if I said something in regards to that evening when we hung out that hurt you. Like you don't understand how sorry, because i've been in your shoes in that situation and it makes you want to die. I'm just sitting here hoping I can persuade you talk to me. I want you in my life.
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and you wont get any money from FAFSA, maybe just a good loan, but that's all. lol.
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