Procrastinating writing my article ( Read more... )

I'm not used to not caring...

But maybe it isn't not caring, maybe it's knowing that It's not my fault for once, and knowing that even if it was, there's nothing I could do.

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I love knowing it's OK, even if it might not always be... God knows. And He'll always know. Because God *knows* ME.

I want to tell you all the things i've always thought and known ( Read more... )

And I am sooo many miles from the ground.

...I'm too scared to look down
and realize just how far I have to fall.

It's funny how everyday,
with every moment that the world is swirled away,
the lines are blurred
and the air crackles around me,
I come one step closer to truly believing.
.
.
.
.
...and because of that,
I can't seem to keep my feet on the ground.
I always wanted to fly,
I've just never been able to find the right wings...
...Until you.

Funny how dropping all my weapons just hurts you more.
I don't know what else to do
Except wait.
And I'm real good at that.
I'm here for you,
That much I promise.

And it's the fuel,
the constant stream of "keep going" that you poor out on me,
that reminds me that it's worth it-
reminds me that I'm not crazy-
convinces me that maybe,
we did something right.

And I'm almost afraid to breath ( Read more... )

Youth was sooo much fun tonight. We did a lip sync to "Doctor Jones" by Aqua. It was grand. I got to do a jump thing! It was exciting. I felt bad for Lawrence having to lift me though... he must be buffer than he thinks lol.

Im so glad it's a 4 day week this week. School is pooey.

For now,
my questions don't matter.
Because even though I really shouldn't,
I'm very close to believing you.

Every
last
whisper.

So don't lie to me.
Because I'm done trusting liars,
and I'd like to think,
even though I'm not confident,
you'd see it as a loss if I walked away.