this last week has felt like my right lung is collasping. that or every muscle surrounding my lung is bruised or something. it hurts sooo bad. up last night coughing feeling like i was going to die...

and i guess i snore. loud like a man. i may drool also. don't sleep with me!

I was in such a good mood today.
Work was actually alright.
Coffee/Chat was good.
Then it stoped.
Night's over.
So I'm sad
+ lonely
-good
bye
:(

(to self) stop staring at the screen and just go to bed you freak.

I'm 20!

was that really worth it? saving money is important, so i bought a needle and went at my nose. i really really missed having my nose pierced for these last few months. they took it out when i went into the er room and i remember begging the doctor not to take it out... little did i know my face was about to swell to twice its size though. anyways, ( Read more... )

lets get this off my chest. my pink, brown, scar ridden chest ( Read more... )

I had a dream I was using Donald Trump's shower. Then I started showing someone else how to use it and promised them The Donald let me do this all the time. OKay, thats it. No more watching TV with my mother ( Read more... )

Seth and I celebrated the big one year anniversary yesterday. Although these last couple months were horrible, they were also amazing being with him and having him pull me through his healing process and dealing with the pain. He rubs my neck so good no matter how many times I ask. He probably spends half his weeks staying at his parents house ( Read more... )

Remember my little blue car? Its for sale if anyone wants it. 500 obo. I don't really care how much money I get out of it or anything, I'm just interested in getting it out of my sight as soon as possible. Everytime I look it it reminds me of "that day" when I got hurt since I was standing right next to it and... everything. So if you know someone ( Read more... )

there is one good reason that i'm putting a few pictures up: i want people to see what can happen when you aren't careful. there was a poster up at the burn center that haunts me still with the phrase "one spark can change your life". i just want people to take the safety signs serious and always be careful no matter what if they are around ( Read more... )

For the first time since the accident: I pumped gas today.This was a huge deal for me to have to face my fears about gas and fires today. I know that everyone pumps gas everyday and that nothing ever happens and I just had to remind myself that I have to do this. So I did. I'll admit it made me nervous. My hand got all clamy even. But I did it. I ( Read more... )